Giving My Best

Christmas Devotion! Happy Blessed Christmas :)

2011-12-25T10:26:00.004+08:00

"Yet, some ppl out there might be loudly crying out.

They've experienced the loss of loved one, persistent unemployment, a serious illness, or depression that will not go away."

However, for those of us who celebrate the birth of our Saviour, despite the dark night of the soul we may experience, all is well because of Christ.

We are not alone in our pain.

God is beside us & promises never to leave. (Heb. 13:5)

He promises that His grace will be sufficient. (2 Cor. 12:9)

He promises to supply our needs. (Phil. 4:19)

Also He promises us the amazing gift of eternal life. (John 10:27-28)

Happy Blessed Christmas!!

P/S: Celebrating Christmas at India this year. God bless!

Update

2011-10-04T20:29:00.000+08:00

Long time didn't update.
Don't worry my dear followers, I'm still using this blog.
Just that I don't have time to update due to busy schedule and internet access problem.
Take care all of you.
God bless!

Take time to Laugh!!

2011-09-11T02:26:00.001+08:00

Kids Are Quick :-) :-) :-) ;-)
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TEACHER: Maria, go to the map and find North America .
MARIA: Here it is.
TEACHER: Now class, who discovered America ?
CLASS: Maria.
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TEACHER: John, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor?
JOHN: You told me to do it without using tables.
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TEACHER: Glenn, how do you spell 'crocodile?'
GLENN: ; K-R-O-K-O-D-I-A-L'
TEACHER: No, that's wrong
GLENN: Maybe it is wrong, but you asked me how I spell it.
(I Love this kid)
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TEACHER: Donald, what is the chemical formula for water?
DONALD: H I J K L M N O.
TEACHER: What are you talking about?
DONALD: Yesterday you said it's H to O.
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TEACHER: Winnie, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
WINNIE: Me!
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TEACHER: Glen, why do you always get so dirty?
GLEN: Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
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TEACHER: Millie, give me a sentence starting with 'I.'
MILLIE: I is..
TEACHER: No, Millie........ Always say, 'I am.'
MILLIE: All right... 'I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.'
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TEACHER: Now, Simon, tell me frankly, do you say prayers before eating?
SIMON: No sir, I don't have to, my Mom is a good cook.
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TE ACHER: Clyde , your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
CLYDE: No, sir. It's the same dog.
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TEACHER: Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
HAROLD: A teacher

P/S: Smile :)

Greetings from India

2011-08-15T19:52:00.000+08:00

Long time I didn’t update this blog. My apologize for it.

Anywhere, I’m supposed to be at JSS Medical College Mysore (which will be flying tomorrow).

But there is somehow & somewhere, which destined me to fly on the 27 July, to SDUMC Kolar India!

OMD.

What should I say?

From a castle to a jungle?

Well, when you come to SDUMC Kolar, your first impression will be like:

“This is the worst place for medical student to be sent at India.”

Haha. Don’t worry, cause it is real and normal.

However, when time goes by, you gonna say:

“OMD, this is not bad!”

So, the moral is:

Don't expect to high.

And little by little, I’m loving Kolar!

It is unique.

Peaceful.

The weather is nice!

The foods:

OMD. Sadapp bah. And they are cheap!!

The lecturers:

The best!

The seniors:

Nothing I can say, but they are the most caring and helpful!

The hostel:

Awesome (you are staying in a ‘hotel’ every day. Because, the hostel is 95% like a hotel. Hehe)

The Post-Graduate students:

They are strict (bikin takut ne). But if you ask them question, face to face, OMD, they are very niceeee.

There are monkeys everywhere.

But don’t worry, they are adorable (somehow, I don’t like the monkeys!)

The Church?!

Kor-In Church. Korean-India.

It’s not a catholic church.

Catholic church is far from my college.

And they use kannada language, not english.

But, wherever you go, faith and heart is counted.

6 of us are going to this Church: Me, Hillary, Gavin Yap, Gebby, Gugapriya & Manpreet!

I bought bicycle! Price. Rs4000. Or, about Rm280. Cheap right? But, that’s among the high quality bicycle here. People will be looking at you and your bicycle if you are cycling with it (Nampak bergaya gitu).

Cadaver?

There are a lot here!

And the smells are like: euwww.

I love cadaver!

Life is busy here.

Every minute is like a gold (masa itu emas).

So, don’t waste your time! Hehe.

(Joanna Han & 1 more senior got DISTINCTION for their first year examination).

Only 3 got distinction. 2 Malaysian, and only 1 local student!

Such a great inspiration.

P/S: Will update more when I have time to blog :)

Volunteering & Studio Offer?!

2011-07-09T12:04:00.001+08:00

Hey, long time I didn't update my blog.

Anywhere, now I'm busy as a Volunteer Assistant at Jaringan Orang Asal SeMalaysia (JOAS) office. I'm flying on the 16th of August this year to Mysore India to further my study in medicine. People (my friends) might be busy preparing for their flight, which is very-very soon. Me?! Haha.

JOAS is a company which is basically to protect Indigenous Peoples rights. The Indigenous Peoples Network of Malaysia or Jaringan Orang Asal Se-Malaysia (JOAS) is the umbrella network for 21 community-based non-governmental organisations that have indigenous peoples’ issues as the focus. As the focal point for indigenous rights and advocacy in Malaysia, JOAS provides the indigenous communities with representation not just nationally but regionally and internationally as well.

Basically, now I'm busy for the preparation of Sambutan Perayaan Hari Orang Asal Sedunia (PHOAS) national level, which will be held at KDCA Cultural Village Penampang Sabah, from 5th to 9th August 2011.

Why I joined this volunteering thing? First of all, I want to maximize my time here with many activities, which for sure can expose me to new things, and thus gaining new experiences.

Next, actually I'm very interested in joining like MERCY organization to help people out there. So, by having new experiences working as a volunteer at JOAS, I hope I can gain more experiences and make use of it in the future.

Life is getting much more busy after I got an offer from PUSAKAG to get involve in their new music video shooting. OMD, I feel like a celebrity now. But I think, I will reject this offer. Better give to other people who need more.

This is one of their music production (among my favourite duet songs):

P/S: Thanks to Christina David for giving me many opportunity to discover more about life. Live your life's purpose, then you can see others too. GBU.

Yeah!!!

2011-07-03T21:50:00.001+08:00

Huhhhh...

Now only I'm able to take my rest after a week of hectic and busy days!

Youth Activity this week is ticked done!

Bolehlah saya menghela nafas panjang sekarang.

After I came back from KL last few days,

only today I'm able to switch on my laptop, online, and rest.

One more thing,

I've reactivated my Facebook Account.

P/S: Wanna sleep early, and wake up late tomorrow. God Bless!

Morning at KLIA!

2011-07-01T10:04:00.003+08:00

Semalam post pasal: Night at KLIA.
Sekarang, post pula pasal: Morning at KLIA.
Dah banyak masa terluang, so mem'blog sajalah kerja.

What to blog about arr? Erm. Well, still remember my previous post about: Thinking of getting a Girlfriend?

There are 3 things (in my opinion) that a guy should have/get before they plan to be in a relationship.

What are they?!

- Having a stable job/career.
- Get your own money, please!
- Can drive a car.

Haha. I got my driving licence!

(Yesss, two more to go. LoL)

Erm. I'm thinking to dye my hair. That colour!!

So that, I look more mature (is it?!)

But my mom doesn't really allow me. LoL. Mom, I'm 20 okay!! But still, I respect her advices. I'm such an obedient son! Pendiam lagi pemalu. Opss. Though I'm 20, but I didn't look like 20 kan? Kan kan?? I think, I can even disguise myself (successfully) to be known as someone around 15 or 16!

Drinking alcoholic drinks is not a tradition, but it is a lifestyle.

When I'm in my kampung, they always give me that kind of drinks.

But, saya tolak dengan nada sopan. Hehe.

But now, after I reached 20, my uncle adviced me:
Somehow, I need to learn how to drink that kind of drinks,
so that I can get along with the 'lifestyle' and many more reasons.
What is my opinion about this??

Some people said that drinking alcoholic drinks is not good.
YES, I agree. But if only they can't manage their drinking.
You have to be a smart drinker.
Somehow, drinking alcoholic drinks does have its own benefit if we are mature enough to control, to manage and to plan how far we want to go (drinking).

And I believe, if most people have this kind of attitude, drinking can be a good lifestyle, and yes, can strengthen your relationship with others (new friends). BUT, if you cannot control or manage yourself: BETTER DON'T TRY IT!!! And strictly speaking here: Budak-budak yang masih sekolah ataupun bawah umur, PLEASE don't!

P/S: This is just my opinion about it. Maybe you have different perspective, because of your different lifestyle, beliefs, and surrounding. There is no such thing called: perfectly right or wrong. So, mind to share or discuss.

Night at KLIA!

2011-07-01T03:39:00.001+08:00

Now, it is 3.41am.

And, I'm at KLIA!

Staying overnight with Navanya & Aathitiyaa.

I'm suppose to be alone,

but they came to accompany me.

I'm connected to the KLIA Wifi,

But cannot connect to Facebook,

YM, Skype and even Malaysian Airlines Website!

Navanya and Aathitiyaa is sleeping now, in front of me.

Pity on them, but thats show how a true friend is.

Such great friends!

There are many more people sleeping around here.

And there is a group of family eating KFC now!

Not KFC Breakfast, okay!!

Tomorrow, my Youth Activity will be started at 3.00pm.

And during that time, I will just come back from KL!

No sleep. Die la.

During our Pre-Departure Briefing,

Tengku Farah (JPA Officer) announced that

we will be flying to Mysore on the 16 August!!

P/S: Byebye Malaysia! St. Philomena, here I come!!!

Pre-Departure Briefing

2011-06-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

I'm going back KL tomorrow.

For pre-departure briefing,

which is on 30th June.

I'll be at KL until 1st July,

staying at one of my friend's house on 29th June.

But, on 30th June, I will stay overnight at the airport;

KLIA.

Alone.

Anyone want to accompany me there?

(No answer. Huhu)

Anyway, see you guys (Collegemates) tomorrow!

P/S: Do pray for my flight. Safe journey! Thanks.

Its a new day: Monday.

2011-06-27T01:25:00.001+08:00

Its a new day: Monday!

The first day of the week.

Now, its 1.20am.

And, I'm still preparing something

for this coming Saturday Performance.

Rehersal, practise!

But yes, I'm Giving My Best!

Here is a great song, sung by Carrie Underwood:

P/S: How Great Thou Art!

Single?!

2011-06-26T23:09:00.001+08:00

I was sitting and talking with my friends this evening.

Lepak-ing with a group of people with 70% almost in drunk condition is always the best situation when you want to discuss about something which needs open-minded opinion.

And the topic was:

Its a great discussion, ended with a great decision.

"Being single is better until you reach your perfect time of becoming a 'couple', so that you won't waste your teenage (solo) life. There won't be another 20th years old age, its gonna be 21, 22, 23 and so on..."

"Gaining experiences will lead you to be more mature and smarter in handling relationship with anyone."

Lastly, we all agreed that:

"You have to know yourself better and be smarter to make a choice in life. There will be always pros and cons, but everything gonna be okay if you can lead yourself to a better way of decision."

P/S: They asked me, won't you feel bored being a single? Erm...

I'm not insane, just emotionally unstable.

2011-06-25T21:06:00.000+08:00

The mixture of emotion:

Tired

Sad

Happy

Disappointed

Regret

During this tough-time,

I learnt how to become more independent,

especially regarding emotion-management,

when it involves career, responsibility and personal matters.

Be more professional!

Let not the emotion controls you,

instead, you control your emotion!

(Especially when you are emotionally unstable).

Sabah Youth Day, SYD 3

2011-06-24T00:30:00.004+08:00

Sabah Youth Day 3:

TAMBUNAN!!!

-2012-

I've joined SYD 2 at Ranau 2008, and it was awesome!!!

I wanted to join SYD 3 at Tambunan next year, but I can't.

I'll be at India during that time.

Studying.

I encourage all the Roman Catholic Sabah Youth to join this event,

because it worth!

I can assure you that:
you gonna experience something powerful,

something different,

and something that you've been searching before.

Here it goes: SYD 3!!!

Lagu tema:

Berakar dan Dibangun dalam Kristus.

Action Song:

This is the SYD3 Blog:
SYD 3: Tambunan

P/S: I miss SYD 2!!! Haha.

This is what I call: MIRACLES!

2011-06-23T19:02:00.002+08:00

Last night, I've joined Novena Prayer with my youth members.

I pray hard so that I can pass my JPJ Test tomorrow (it means, today).

I went to KMK today for my driving test (JPJ Test). What?! Baru ambil lesenkah? Yups. My JPJ Test was today. I suppose to have it last February, but due to few reasons, I have to postpone it. Well, on my way to KMK, I tried to calm down myself by listening to many motivating songs like:

* Don't Say You Can't - Bruno Mars
* I didn't know my own strength - Whitney Houston

I reached KMK, and met with Amee Soimon (My collegemate). She is also taking her JPJ Test. We talked for a while, and then I was called for Ujian Bukit! My turn: 14!!

I felt something weird. Something that is not good. I have a bad feeling that I won't pass this test. Argghh! So, my name was called by the JPJ, and I was to get ready with the car provided. Guys, the car is damn not nice! Cis, malang sungguh nasibku!

When I started my car, and went up hill and stop, it was perfect! Huhh. Nafas lega. BUT!!! After that, I press the petrol, the clutch and do what I'm supposed to do, it went up a bit, and then....arghhhh!!! I don't know what happened, but I failed!

They asked me to stop. Dengan muka penuh sedih dan hampa , I went out from the car, and went to see the JPJ for the report! BUT, when I got my report, it was written: LULUS. OMD, is it true? And, I checked the name, gosh...its not mine. It was ANDREW (the guy who managed to pass the Ujian Bukit, just beside my car). I went and see Andrew, he got my paper. I took it, and straight away, my eyes on the result: LULUS!!

I don't know what happened, either the JPJ made mistake, gave me chance, or, maybe due to the car problem. But, I really thanks THANKS GOD!!!

I told my Tutor about what happened just now, and he said: Its my luck! Before this, I was damn nervous. But after that, I don't want to waste the blessing from Him anymore. So, with confident: I went for parking, and 3 penjuru. LULUS. After that, JPJ (Laluan) Test: LULUS CEMERLANG!

NOW, I got my Lesen P!

First miracle of the day.

NEXT, guys, did you still remember about this post: I wish I can... ???

I'm hoping for a miracle.

I don't know what to decide, and how to decide.

I booked my ticket from 29 June to 5 July for JPA Briefing. Actually, JPA Briefing is only on 30 June. But, we planned for Jalan-jalan cari makan dulu. However, suddenly I have my Youth Activity.

Guess what, they sponsored me my flight ticket,

so that I can join the Youth Activity.

OMD.

So, I'm going back on 1 July!

I will do my best for my concert!!!

Thanks to my manager. Hehe.

Another miracle is:
My Church Feast Day!

The celebration was supposed to be on 29 June, which is exactly on the day when I'll be flying to KL. BUT now, I don't know what happened, but it was changed to: 28 June!! I will be singing solo at Church for the second time.

3 things

that every seconds I think,

and at first I thought were impossible,

BUT now, everything is possible!

Thanks God!!

"For I know the plans that I have for you,

the plans for good and not for disaster.

To give you future and hope.."

Jeremiah 29:11

P/S: Unexpected miracles from Him. Have Faith in Him, in your prayer, and what ever you do. God Bless!

Car Accident!!!

2011-06-18T22:26:00.001+08:00

I went out with my friends for some event.

Roysten (Driver), Achel (sitting in front seat), Baxter, Gumie and me.

3 of us were sitting at the back seats of the car.

On our way back to our kampung after the event,

it was around 7.45pm,

the ACCIDENT happened!!

-Sample-

(This is how the situation was)

Who's fault?

What happened?!

Well, there is a car (Proton Saga) in front of us, who was wanted to turn right, but the driver didn't use the car signal earlier, and suddenly made a sudden stop!

Roynsten made an emergency break!!

Our Myvi was just like 20cm at the back of the Proton.

It was super-close!

Thanks God,

we were saved.

BUT,

UNLUCKILY,

There was a Perodua Rusa Car at the back, driving fast, also made an emergency break, but it was too late. PLUS, his break is not working efficiently (he told us). Then suddenly, BOOMMMM!!!!

Before the Perodua hit our car,

I sempat look at the back and saw the driver's face:

-Sample-

What happened next?

How do they (we) settled the matter?!

I won't explain further, but it was settled.

Man to man talk.

Without making it worse and complicated by reporting it to the police.

I really thanks God,

because all of us were saved!

None of us get injured, just shocked.

And maybe trauma & phobia (for some; maybe).

I was sitting at the back seat which was the exact point on which the Perodua hit our Myvi. I can't stop thanking Him for saving me, and giving me a chance to continue my life.

THANKS GOD!

P/S: My first car accident experience, which at the same time, I experience 'love' from Him. Appreciate your life when you still have it. God bless!

When all of us gather together??!

2011-06-16T21:59:00.003+08:00

All of us (now) at home!

My parents.

My big-brother.

My elder sister.

2 of my younger brothers.

And, another 2 of my younger sisters.

With dogs, fishes, birds and chickens!!

When you have a big family,

Your life is like..

erm...

err..

FIREWORKS!!!

-HAPPY-

I wish I can...

2011-06-13T23:35:00.003+08:00

Please,

Please!!!

I wish I can change the date.

I wish I can come back earlier after the JPA Pre-Departure Briefing!

I wanna join my Youth Activity.

My performance,
My concert!!!

Haiz.

P/S: Please, I need miracles!!!

Say What?!

2011-06-13T14:02:00.000+08:00

P/S: I found this photos from someone's blog. Its kind of funny, I think! Haha. Just: Enjoy!

Just the way I am

2011-06-13T11:24:00.008+08:00

Its about 2 weeks after I came back home (from my KI Course).

And, I've been busy most of the time. OMD!

I reached Sabah on 29 May, around 3.00pm at my Kampung. I took my rest first, and z z Z: SLEPT! I was terribly sleepy, because that morning, I slept at 4.00am, til 6.30am ONLY! Gossiping with John Lau for the last time (BROMANCE?!). And, enjoy packing my stuffs. FYI, John Lau is not good in packing his stuff!! Oppss...secret revealed, sorry JL!

I woke up at 7.00pm on that day.

Haven't bath!

Haven't eat!!

Haven't unpack my luggage.

And, I directly received SMS, asking me to go to the stage for Kaamatan Rehersal! I was lazy (and tired) to go actually, but because I'm the emcee, so I have to be there. IF NOT?! They can't start the rehersal. Haiz.

Finished rehersal around 11.30pm.

The next morning, I have to woke up before 8.00am. Because, the event is starting before 8.00am. Emcee-ing for the whole day, until night. OMD!

And so far, I have attended few meeting (for our coming Youth Activity), post mortem (was paid for becoming the emcee!!! Yay), and 4 more up-coming projects.

I've deactivated my FB recently.

WHY?!

Just assume that I am busy, okay?

(After this, don't ask me anymore).

Well,

I want to change!

I want to become more mature.

I want to become more ADULT.

Not a teenage boy anymore, not in anyone teenage dream.

3 months during KI Course had taught me a lot about LIFE.

About FREEDOM.

About HUMANITY.

About being true of who you ARE.

And about accepting yourself.

I've seen different kind of personality.

Those who managed to maintain,

And those who have changed.

I've seen people who can (and really) appreciate others, and those who don't.

I've seen friends who accept the way you are, and those who don't.

I've seen those people who really work hard and want the best for others,

but was treated the way in which they are not deserving it.

I met many people who at first I'm not really comfortable and 'like' them, but after knowing them, I was like "he/she is awesome actually."

I thanks God for giving me the chance to see this thing during KI.
This experience causes me to THINK.
And this experience causes me to LEARN.
And, I've decided to cut all my connection,
to REFRESH,
and to REFLECT about everything.

And hopefully,
I can become someone new,
and something better.

Don't worry, I'm okay.
Still the way I am (slighty different a bit),
Still humble,
Still innocent,
And still virgin.

(this might be my last opportunity to use this kind of 2P2C introduction).

P/S: Weird post. Ignore this. Haha. Suddenly, I miss my housemates: John Lau (JL), Victor Lian (Mr. Big V), Xiang (JX), and ZheYan (taken). Hehe.

How Great is Our God

2011-06-10T20:46:00.000+08:00

I realise that everytime I lead Praise & Worship during CF,

most of the time, I'll choose and sing this song.

And until now, I still LOVE this song!

P/S: I really miss my ex-committees (3rd Generation) in CF: Willy, Ricky, Melzie, Edwin, Joyner, Sophia, Victor, Mark, Ling, Gebby, Gavin Man.

9 June 2011

2011-06-10T00:32:00.004+08:00

>> I got my Nikon Charger!!! Thanks John Lau for posting it to me.

>> I paid all my 'hutang' to (again) John Lau!

>> John Lau is going to US tomorrow; he promised me for souvenir!!!

I went jalan-jalan cari makan with my friends here.

(Gumie, Kumbil, Gillie, Toyou?!)

MegaLong. OMD! I ate a lot today! I like it.

Life is getting busy! We'll be having Youth Activity soon.

Meeting here and there!

Plus, 4 more up-coming projects. (O.O)

I watched Kungfu Panda 2!

I know that I'm too late for it, but still, it was awesome!

Received rumours:

Mysore?!

Same thing will happen like KLE?

OMD. Please don't!

Hopefully, it is not true.

P/S: Dear my senior (Keshan); get well soon. I'll pray for you. Take care, and all the best for your coming exam (^..^). And, thanks to Aliff for updating me on what is going on in FB!

I didn't know my own strength

2011-06-07T11:36:00.001+08:00

This song is dedicated to all my blog readers;

who didn't know their own strength.

Lost touch with my soul
I had no where to turn
I had no where to go
Lost sight of my dream,
Thought it would be the end of me
I thought I’d never make it through
I had no hope to hold on to,
I thought I would break

I didn’t know my own strength
And I crashed down, and I tumbled
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn’t know my own strength
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn’t know my own strength

Found hope in my heart,
I found the light to life
My way out of the dark
Found all that I need
Here inside of me
I thought I’d never find my way
I thought I’d never lift that weight
I thought I would break

I didn’t know my own strength
And I crashed down, and I tumbled
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn’t know my own strength
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn’t know my own strength

There were so many times I
Wondered how I’d get through the night I
Thought took all I could take

I didn’t know my own strength
And I crashed down, and I tumbled
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn’t know my own strength
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn’t know my own strength

Goodbye FB!

2011-06-05T21:33:00.002+08:00

Goodbye FaceBook.

Keep in touch ya!

Text me if there is anything important.

-Thanks-

Life: FALL or RISE?!

2011-05-17T17:00:00.001+08:00

This video is about a girl who FALL during the race, but she didn't give up. This race is not about a fall, but is about a RISE. It is like our life which always have up and down, but how we want to take it when we fall?

God Bless!

Hypocrite

2011-05-07T16:40:00.000+08:00

I just, don't care anymore.

If you don't like me, so then it is fine.

Because, I am who I'm suppose to be.

It's better to be myself instead of acting like those hypocrite,

so that everyone gonna praise them and said 'you are awesome'.

Wow. This time, I started my post with emo-kind of expression. (I like it)!!! LOL. Anyway, before I start, just want to let you (readers) to know that nothing happened to me. I am fine, and emotionally stable. Haha. I just want to share about few things regarding hypocrisy (is this is a correct term to be used?)

By the way, I'm a little bit confused about people's perception or people's judgement. (Like I care).

I don't like people to identify me as a 'good' person. I mean, good is good. But, they put the term 'good' as someone perfect (without any mistakes in life)! Well, I am a merely human being too. Not capable of doing everything, and many times fell into mistakes.

Life is an adventure. You can do anything you want to do; and it is your responsibility to think whether you are doing right or wrong. (Leave a comment if you are disagree about this).

My mother taught and always remind me to behave well, and respect other people. (I believe, your mother did too). But, I hate it that when you behave well, (but your friends didn't), they started to think "Oh, he changed!".

Since I was in primary school, I have many friends (good or not-so-good kind of friends). But it is your responsibility to develop your own personality, although there are many types of people around you. Think wisely about good or bad influences.

I'm so happy when I came to KTT, and been selected as a CF President (which at first, I refused to do so). Thanks Daniel Chong for your text. I'm still keeping it in my phone. The challenges as a CF President taught me to discover more about life and people's personality. There is a lot of thing I still need to learn, and I am learning from everyone (though I am the ex-president now, but I still learning even from my juniors). Like what I've said, I'm not perfect, and I did mistakes.

So, the question is: is it wrong for me to hangout with my friends (let say the not-so-good kind of friends) and sitting with them with their own not-so-good kind of lifestyle? To be clear here, I'm not doing what they are doing.

For sure, my opinion is that: it is not wrong. What would you say?

But, but and BUT!!! Look around you. Or maybe, ask yourself!

Because of this, they (some people) started to think badly about you.

They started to judge something from you!

"He/She is not setting a good example"

"He/She is bad now"

"He/She changed!"

"I don't respect him/her anymore"

"OMD...."

If people labelled you as a good person:

Is it wrong for you to wear short pants to got out anywhere?

Is it wrong for you to dance dangdut on stage?

Is it wrong for you to laugh (like you had never laugh since you were born)?

Is it wrong for you to be a little bit kind of 'crazy' person a while?

OR (biggest OR), a good person is just like a nerd and innocent kind of behaviour???

OR (triple size OR), go meet everyone, act like you are awesome, and get the praise from them. Show to them that you are someone that never do mistake, perfect and the most fabulous! Announce to the whole world, or to make it easier, post in your Facebook status that you are the best angel in the world! (But actually, and sadly, you are not). Oh please. OMD! (Haha. 'Good' sentences influenced by E)

I just, don't care anymore.

If you don't like me, so then it is fine.

Because, I am who I'm suppose to be.

It's better to be myself instead of acting like those hypocrite,

so that everyone gonna praise them and said 'you are awesome'.

P/S: Oh My (Double D) Dolce!!! Let us share about this. Feel free to leave your comments or ideas.

God LOVE you for who you are: Easter Balloon!

2011-04-30T11:25:00.002+08:00

Last year, we made Easter Eggs! And, we came with a great testimony which really inspired those who were in that moment.

This year (2011) Easter, we made 300 of Easter Balloons for KTTians! (With note sticked: God LOVE you for who you are). This is part of our Campus Revolution (with love) activity. Some people called it as a STRESS ball. I'm not sure why, but most probably is because of two matters:

- Either the Easter balloons can be shapen according to your feelings or moods on that particular moment, or

- Maybe because the Easter Balloons are too cute!

This is my Easter Balloon this year!

I haven't named it: Any suggestion?

My Teddy is not lonely anymore, he got a new friend!

All of these were made out of love and passion with care. Pleased to know that we gave out 300 Easter balloon in around 2 hours!

Not only giving out to Christian, but many unbelievers (Hindu, Buddha and some Muslim) took it due to its cuteness (maybe). Even the lecturers took it themselves, and felt touched! Edwin and I gave to our KI Indian Lecturers, and they felt appreciated! Love, love, LOVE!

Some UITM (or Diploma), eh not sure la what course are them (but for sure, non A-Level or KI students) also were very excited to chose the cutest Easter Balloon for them (alaa, susah sangat nak pilih, bagus pilih saya ja! Hehe). And they asked, kenapa tak jual? Mesti dapat banyak untung!

Well, LOVE is not to be sold, and it can't be bought either. It is free, but yet very expensive and purely precious too! Good job and thumbs up to all the juniors (and my batchmates too), you've shown the LOVE of Christ in this college! Hopefully you guys can do more to exercise your faith!

Happy Easter everyone!

For more pictures,

click this link KTT CF Easter Balloon

Think about it: Realize!

2011-04-30T09:24:00.003+08:00

To realize the value of a sister/brother:
Ask someone Who doesn't have one.

To realize the value of ten years:
Ask a newly divorced couple.

To realize the value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize the value of one year:
Ask a student who has failed a final exam.

To realize the value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a stillborn.

To realize the value of one month:
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize the value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize the value of one minute:
Ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize the value of one second:
Ask a person who has survived an accident.

Time waits for no one:
Treasure every moment you have.

To realize the value of a friend or family member:

LOSE ONE.

Now I added few things that came up on my mind:

To realize the value for JPA Scholarship:

Ask a person who can't make it for A-level.

To realize the value of KTT:

Ask my batchmates who can't make it for KI.

To realize the art and the fun of performing:

Ask B-Shakers United!

To realize the value of friendship:

Ask those who's birthday was celebrated in KTT.

To realize about everything:

Read this, and start to think.

God Bless!

Tamil Night Performance!

2011-04-29T17:45:00.001+08:00

Tamil Night was on the 20th April 2011.

(Only now got change to post about this)

But now, the post is like 'bangas' already, so not much words.

Just few pictures I wanna share. Enjoy!

From left: John, Victor, Me, and Xiang (Housemate!)

Zhe Yan was busy somewhere.

We came earlier, and took this opportunity to pose first!

(You better do like this for every event,

if you plan to take pictureat the end of the event,

there will be many people around you. So, no privacy!

My group's performance!

Members: Shana, Shalini, Carol, Christine & Zafrina (Girls).

Khairul, Stephen, Maegyvear, John Lau, & Dennie (Boys).

We've celebrated Lavina's Birthday too!

Happy 20th Birthday, Lavina!

Posing again, after Tamil Night!

I enjoyed myself during our dancing performance! The best performance will be chosen to perform during our Graduation Day. Some group, they took this like a competition. But Carol (our choreographer) said that, no need to win. The most important thing is, we give the opportunity for everyone (especially to non-Indian) to get exposed with the culture.

The best thing about my group was, not everyone can dance! Haha. That's why, even though we didn't get the best performance on that night, but I think, we are the best! Cause, everyone did their best! Thanks all!!

Tamil Night!

2011-04-14T17:57:00.001+08:00

Currently,

I'm busy preparing for Tamil Night.

I'll be performing the Tamil Dance during

our Tamil Night on the 20 April 2011, Thursday!

I feel like I am in Tamil Dance Academy Class

because everyday (most of the time),

I'll be dancing,

dancing

and dancing!

Yay, I love it!

Suddenly, I remember about one reality TV Shows called
So You Think You Can Dance?

So, do you think you can dance?!

Don't ever underestimate Tamil Dance!

Because it is fun!!!

P/S: I can't wait for Tamil Night. As do Hindi Night, and Kannada Night!

Bahas

2011-04-12T10:02:00.002+08:00

My Tamil Class is cancelled, so I'm blogging.

Last week, I had my Pertandingan Bahas. Our usul during that time was 'Penambahbaikan dan Penyelenggaraan Kemudahan Awam Perlu Diadakan secara Berkala'. And, we were the government team.

So, this is what we (and I) can conclude. First of all, we got number 4 (just 2 marks from the Third Place). We were disappointed and sad actually, because everyone expect us to win. We ourselves have a great confidence to win after our Bahas. Our lecturers (Miss Halimahtun and Miss Azidah) also have that great confidence that we will win. And EVEN THE OPPOSITION team (during our match), supported us towards the end of the debate competition. Why? Because they have prepared technically wrong. And, during the second round, they totally gave up.

Talking about second round, this Bahas format is a bit weird. We have 2 rounds in one time (this is what they; the opposition team misunderstood).

After our Bahas, other lecturers came to us and said we did well. They even invited us to join Bahas IPTA/IPTS around September this year. (Copying Eric: OMD!!!)

But, once the results were announced, the opposition team (which gave up to us) won! First place. And we got fourth.

Although we were disappointed with the results, but our lecturers congratulated us because we really did our best. And we lose because of the 'sistem perjurian'.

I felt disappointed with the 'sistem perjurian', because:

1. The judges even confused about the format: I'm the one who corrected them while debating! (Yes, we are right based on the format that was explained during the briefing session). Judges pun malu-malu. Haiz!

2. Their format is like this; they didn't 'tolak' or 'terima' usul! But, they select the champion based on the total mark (ranking). This is unfair for all of the team. Debate shouldn't be like this! What if you opposition team is not good? How your marks will be? Its unfair to be like that.

3. What do you expect the judges to judge if during the 'sesi perbahasan' some of them went out to toilet? How can they listened to the points??

4. And, how do you expect them to judge if they change the judges in the middle of the perbahasan? This is totally weird and unfair. We are very sure that they are not the debate-real-judges. Just simply known people who have been given respect to judge us.

However, thanks to Capek, Huzai and Harry for giving a good cooperation and teamwork. Thanks to Miss Halimahtun and Miss Azidah for the great supports. Thanks to all of my friends who supported us too!

P/s: We look like the MAS-Junior-Stewards, sitting during our briefing session. Hehe.

Mysore, India.

2011-04-10T23:44:00.001+08:00

I know that this is a late post, but still I wanna share about it. And ya, we knew our placement at India on the 24th March, 2011.

THANKS GOD!

I got JSS Medical College Mysore, India.

I've been praying to God about this. And, He had answered my prayer! I've prayed about 2 things actually. First, I can get the same placement together with my closest friends (housemates). Second, I've prayed so that God can give me a good placement, which got Church, nearer.

BUT, we have to realise that God can't give you everything you wanted to. BECAUSE, He wants the best for you! And I think (and believe) that JSS Medical College Mysore India is the best for me! Though my closest friends got different placement, but I love Mysore! Thanks God.

This is Catholic St. Philomena's Church, Mysore.

(Which is just 10 minutes from my University!)

The Palace!

This is some information about Mysore I took from Wikipedia:

Mysore is the second largest city in the state of Karnataka, India. Mysore was rated the second cleanest city in India in 2010 and the cleanest in Karnataka.

It is situated in the southern region of the state of Karnataka, at the base of the Chamundi Hills. The summer season is from March to June, followed by the monsoon season from July to November and the winter season from December to February. The highest temperature recorded in Mysore was 38.5 °C on May 4, 2006, and in winter, temperatures as low as 9.6 °C have been recorded.

Mysore is a tourism hot spot within the state of Karnataka and also acts as a base for other tourist places in the vicinity of the city. The city receives the maximum number of tourists during the period of the Dasara festival when festivities take place for a period of 10 days.

How To Bloom?

2011-03-22T22:54:00.003+08:00

People always asked me:

What is you tips?

What is your secret of being success?

Because we always wanna do everything better!

Well, this story I read this morning struck me deeply! It reminds me of all those questions, and it gave me the perfect answer if someone ask me regarding 'what is life all about', and 'how to become success in life'.

Here it is:

My family and I live in an apartment, so our “flower garden” consists of what we can grow in indoor pots. For a long time our plants would not flower despite watering and fertilizing. Then we discovered that the soil had to be raked and turned over if the plants were to bloom. Now our potted plants are a pure joy to look at with their healthy leaves and blooming flowers.

Sometimes we need a little raking and turning in our own lives to make us bloom. Writing to the harassed believers in his day, Peter said, “Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; but rejoice” (1 Peter 4:12-13).

Like the soil in our potted plants, these Christians were having their lives “turned over". God’s purpose in doing that was to allow their faith to result in praise and glory to Him at the revelation of Jesus Christ.

God wants to loosen the things that can choke our lives and that prevent us from radiating joy. To do this, He sometimes has to allow pain and trouble—trials that help stir up the soil of our lives.

If this is what you are experiencing today, rejoice. Surrender to His touch and acquire a joy and fruitfulness you never imagined possible.

"Those who bless God in their trials
will be blessed by God through their trials."

Free Compliments

2011-03-21T16:05:00.002+08:00

Hey, you look awesome today!

Hey, you hair is fabulous!!

Wow, I like you T'shirt!

I have a story to share:

During a time of economic crisis and depressing news, two university students decided to lift the spirits of people on campus with some encouraging words. For two hours every Wednesday afternoon, they stood along a busy path holding a large "Free Compliments" sign and saying nice things to everyone who passed by.

"I like you red coat"

"Cool snow boots"

"Very nice smile"

Some students said they deliberately walked past 'the compliment guys' every Wednesday just to hear a kind of word.

I was struck by these two young men who looked at people with the goal of commending them, rather than finding fault or being critical. Is that how I, as a follower of Christ, view others each day?

Instead of being like the person who is focused on evil and whose speech is 'like a burning fire', we can take a different approach, knowing that what we say begins deep inside us.

"The heart of the wise teaches his mouth, and adds learning to his lips. Pleasant words are like a honeycomb,
sweetness to the soul and health to the bones."

Proverbs 16:23-24

Kind words may be free, but they give a priceless lift of spirit. Why not encourage someone today?

P/S: A gentle word of compliment falls lightly, but it carries great weight!

Remember to be Humble

2011-03-19T18:26:00.002+08:00

"For those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted."

Luke 14:11

It's crucial to take a sense of humility into the world. If your attitude is that only smarter people have something to teach you, your learning opportunities will be very limited. But if you have a humble eagerness to learn something from everybody, your learning opportunities will be unlimited!

Generally, you can be humble only if you feel really good about yourself and want to help those around you feel really good about themselves too.

When we see people acting in an abusive, arrogant, or demeaning manner towards others, their behaviour almost always is a symptom of their lack of self-esteem. They need to put someone else down to feel good about themselves.

"And note this: Some who seem least important now will be the greatest then, and some who are the greatest now will be least important then."

Luke 13:30

P/S: Sometimes, we just need to keep quiet a while, listen and observe people around us to learn and to reflect how humility is being practiced in our daily life nowadays.

Library Wifi

2011-03-17T21:30:00.001+08:00

When I first came here for KI, I tried to get connected to the KTT Library Wifi.

Unfortunately, the line is not stable!

Now, its 9.20pm, I'm sitting in the library with Shana and Edwin,

online, movies and chatting!

The juniors are all around us, with books and seriously; studying!

Pre-AS and Pre-A2 starts next week (if not mistaken).

All the best to all of you ya!

FESKOTT, 2011.

2011-03-13T21:15:00.001+08:00

FESKOTT stands for Festival Sukan Kolej Teknologi Timur.

Huhhh...

(menghela nafas panjang...)

Feskott is done!

Ends with 5 medals and 1 trophy:

1 Gold Medal:

4x400m

1 Silver Medal:

Larian Mesra (Merentas Desa)

3 Bronze Medals:

4x100m, 400m, and 800m

1 Bronze Trophy:

Volleyball

I came to KTT on 28 February 2011 for KI. That evening: I'd fall, and sprained my ankle badly! I can't even walk on the next day. And, I took my rest for the next 3 days from any outsides activities!

That caused me to have just like 5 days training before Feskott!

5 Days Training is (for sure) NOT enough for you to join Feskott Olahraga with 5 events on A DAY! I know the risk, but still I don't want to easily give up. I've promised to myself to give my best, though I almost give up in each of them. Yeah, I won against myself!

It started with Larian Mesra (Merentas Desa) at 8.00am. (Got Silver.) Then, 30 minutes after I finished Larian Mesra, I ran again for 4x400m! (Gold Medal). 10 minutes after that relay, was my 800m!! (Got Bronze). My hamstring was painful! I was extremely tired, until at the end of the finishing line for 800m, I can't even stand and walk! Thanks to Sir Faiq, Faruqi and Victor for helping me during that time.

So, Faruqi sent me back to college so that I can rest.

Thanks Faruqi!

In the evening, I still have another 2 more events, consecutively! Around 3.30pm, I ran for 4x100m. (Bronze medal). Directly after that, I ran again for 400m!!! (Bronze medal).

Only God knows how tired and exhausted I am.

But that is not the real point I wanted to share here. Well , dear readers: what ever journey you are going through, do it all out! Give your best in everything you do, and have faith in God no matter how difficult is the situation.

I came to a point where I truly believe in all my capabilities. And I encourage all of you to diversify you ability, not into one profession only; because that is the best way to push yourself to the limits!

Let people ask you what you can't do instead of asking you what you can do.

While running, never say "I can't do this", because, you can actually do far more better beyond your own expectation! During Larian Mesra and 800m, I nearly give up! But I motivate myself to keep on pushing, until the end of the finishing line. If you are not giving up in what ever you do, though there are many challenges and temptation, you'll get your own satisfaction and joy! Though I'm not the Gold Medal runner, but it make you feel like you are the winner! The winner on your own.

P/S: Thanks God for the blessings and everything He did today! I shouldn't be running for Feskott this year if without His miracles onto my badly-sprained-ankle! Thanks God.

Back To KTT

2011-03-01T18:16:00.001+08:00

Currently, I'm back to KTT, Selangor.

Doing my KI (Kursus Intensif India).

I've registered here yesterday.

This course will be 28 February 2011 until 28 May 2011.

And, I'm in KI4.

For FESNI and FESKOTT, I'm not in Red Antz;

but now I'm in Yellow Leopy (Leopard).

I've sprained my ankle during telematch yesterday.

Kidda sad, because most probably I can't join Feskott,

which will be held on 11 March!

I've been selected as KI MPP Vice President this year.

But refused to be so!

Together with Ahmad Faruqi as the President.

So, we (our previous batch of MPP) decided to be the adviser only,

and a new team of KI MPP is then been selected!

Congratulation to Thaneer as a new KI MPP!

KI: Testimony & Curriculum Vitae!

2011-02-23T11:11:00.000+08:00

I believe that many of us are having problems regarding this matter. So, I asked and emailed few seniors. Here is a few response, and advices from the seniors; hope this can help you guys to have better view of ideas.

My message to them:

"hey, sorry disturb.

Just wanna ask, how you guys do ur testimony for JPA last time? Your school provide it for you, or u have to do it by yourself? How about curriculum vitae? You do ur own or from ur previous secondary school? Do all of them important? Will effect the U at India?

huh..only today they email us this. registrtion will be next week"

Parvina

"hey there..sorry for the late reply..hmm..testimony i got it frm school..but u hv do the translation by urself...curiculum vitae also frm school..but actually this thing its not going to determine ur uni...uni selection wil b very random..all the best..see u in india:p"

Keshan

"hey man..
owh..my testimony was given by my school.in malay la..so i had to translate them to english..along with the other documents in d list..
curriculum vitae...i did it myself ..
basically..i dun think jpa looks into all these things..its just required when u register on the 1st day in india..the university requirements..
the placement of students in the universities are quite random:)
haha..feel free to ask me anything la..i'll help if i can
God bless:) and have fun in ki~!"

"hey..sorry for the late reply..had a dinner with encik khairudin just now..u'll noe who he is when u reach india..he's d guy taking care of all the students in india..
the cv last time..they asked us to limit to 1 page..i can email u my sample if you want..just send me ur email add..i'll give it to u after my class tmrw"

Zeff

"testimony tu surat akuan sekolah. minta dr school la. curriculum vitae kena buat sendiri. Tdk juga important tu. they will just give the placements at random. Still semua docs mesti ada la. Sya masih ada translated sample kalu ko mau. sya blh email la"

Daniel Chong

"Testimony is from school. But curiculum vitae is buat sendiri one. Just google how to write a CV la, or follow the JPA email draft... I don't think it will affect anything.."

And here is some extra

information and advices from Miss Syaza

1.If your School Testimonial is type at the same piece of paper together with surat berhenti sek...just taip surat berhenti sek mcm biasa
but, make sure u explain to KTT/JPA that yr school testimoni n surat berhenti is the same.

2.Your Passport,If Possible do Bring, If couldnt,Then KTT will arrange for us.

...3.Your Blazer
DONT do the BLAZER before coming KTT,.KTT will arrange a slot where You all will have tailor & measure there.JPA will sponsor that.

4.When class on (KI), dont ponteng,movement will be reported back to JPA.If you sick and have other issue coming up, come up with Formal Letter,give it to penyelaras KI.

KI - has exam 1,2 and final..this is mandatory...u cannot change it
all of yr result will post to JPA

Please Pass the Message.
Thank you . =)
-Miss Syaza

P/S: Will add and share more info if I got any. God Bless!

Surat Tawaran Mengikuti Kursus Intensif Program Khas India

2011-02-22T14:46:00.001+08:00

To all KI students:

This is the Surat Tawaran Mengikuti Kursus Intensif Program Khas India.

We'll receive the Information Letter during KI Registration on 28 February 2011.

Faruqi emailed this to me, so maybe you guys can click and read the information given:

JPA (Scholarship)

2011-02-21T10:40:00.003+08:00

To all SPM 2010 candidates (or anyone who wish to apply for JPA Scholarship):

You guys can click this link,
and open JPA website to apply for a scholarship, online.

JPA (Scholarship)

Always get updated,
or check the website for further notice and announcement.

This is how I applied mine last time.

All the best!

God Bless You All.

KI? Goodbye Sabah!

2011-02-15T20:42:00.000+08:00

Everyone is talking about KI.

When is it actually?

I messaged Miss Syairah, and she said that Mr. Razib told her that KI should be on 28th February 2011. But, she don't want to spread the news yet because JPA haven't give them a confirmation.

28th February 2011???

I have another 13 more days left!!!

It makes me feel sad, suddenly. Because, I'm leaving Sabah again, all my friends here and especially my family! So, I posted Goodbye in my FB Status as a sign of leaving soon to all my friends. When I looked back my days that were spent here, I enjoyed myself too much. Having fun as a teenager, or as a young youth. But after this, I won't be able to have such a great happiness as a teenager anymore (maybe).

I'm going back to KTT for Language Course, or Kursus India. And will be focusing on my study and career as a young medical student a.k.a doctor (seriously)!

"I don't want to disappoint all of them,

who support and hoping for the best on me."

P/S: Goodbye my friends. I miss the time we spent and hangout with all of you!

Youth Revolution & Konsert Rohani

2011-02-10T09:41:00.001+08:00

Last week, I was tremendously tired and of course busy.

Let me recall my schedule:

31 January (Monday):

Novena & Practice for Concert

2 February (Wednesday):

Novena & Practice for Concert

3 February (Thursday):

Novena, Gotong-Royong, Practice for Concert and proceed with Concert rehearsal.

4 February (Friday):

Stayed at Church for Youth Revolution Programme

5 February (Saturday):

Youth Revolution Programme & Concert Performance

6 February (Sunday):

Youth Revolution Closing Ceremony

You might be asking:

What is the Youth Revolution Programme?

What is about the Concert?

The idea of that Youth Revolution Programme came from my experience and exposure at KTT: Campus Revolution. I remember the moment when I told all my CF Committees that:

"Here (in KTT), we learnt about leadership. Our faith have been challenged! But remember, we are not only serve here! I really hope to see you guys as a leader (or at least: serving) at your place."

Hey there: Edwin Loh, Joyner, Sophia, Mark, Gavin Man, Ricky Rack, Willy, Melzie, Gebby, Victor, and Ling Chieng Jiun. How are you guys doing there? I believe that all of you are still with the cross (responsibility) that God has given us to pass it on. Don't give up!

I've promised to my Youth Advicer: Christina to do something for the youth during my holiday. Thanks God, I did! And, I thank you very-very much to KBP Induk, Youth Revolution Team, KSB and TPBP, not forgotton to those who involved in this programme because you guys made it a success!

Youth Revolution is Our First Youth Activity this year (under KBP). To recall, recharge and renew. To polish youth's hidden talent, and to expose them with Bible, developing and increasing their faith, and at the same time, to help them to develop a good attitude, socially. Our greatest challenge is the 'Revolution' itself. But within 3 days, we managed to revolutionalise them physically, socially and of course spiritually. Maybe not all, but at least we have opened the door, and help them to make their first step out from their comfort zone.

Thanks God.

During Concert:

We had many talented youth in musics and art. They can play musics instrument, and sing very very well! So, during the programme, we tried our best to polish the unpolished, and help them to develop their self esteem and confident level.

I performed 10 songs: Yesus, Celebrate Jesus Celebrate, Tiba Saat, One Way, Dalamnya KasihMu, Mengejar HadirMu, Shout to the Lord, Alleluai To Christ the Lord, How Great is Our God, and Shine Like Stars with my awesome friends and talented singer: Donna Benedict and Rachelle Ann on stage, live! Not forgotten the band: Melldry Mikin (Keyboard), Firminus (Drum), Davey Dennis (Bass Guitar), Ronald Reggie (Lead Guitar) and Walter Lampangoh (Acoustic Guitar). Superb Emcee: Baxter Collin, and So You Think You Can Dance dancers: Nestor, Florina, Mechelvia, Mitchelle Fay, Marsheline and Eldora.

Even though we were tired, no more voice, lack of sleep and busy: but we had such a great experience that night!

If I am not a doctor?

2011-01-29T13:44:00.002+08:00

"WAITING is one of the painful moment which I don't really like to be in. While waiting for my A-Level results, I kept on thinking: IF I can't make it, then what should I do?"

My A2 class lecturer (Miss Aifaa) always remind me this: "You gonna be an awesome, versatile, flexible and talented doctor. Please do sing for your patients to cure them emotionally"

Her words always encourage and motivate me to keep on believing in myself. She always slap me with her words! Sometimes it hurts, but that is how it goes. Thanks to Miss Aifaa!

On Friday (3 days before I'll know my A-Level results), the burdens of waiting become heavier each day closer. I tried my best to ignore that feelings. Physically, I did! But, emotionally, I didn't. I can't pretend my own feelings. Then, I shared it with my friends: Gumie and Baxter. Guess what, they become worried too! Huh. Useless sharing, burdening people that is caring.

I lost my confident in singing during my secondary school (primary school, I sang a lot). But, I got back my confident and self-esteem during FESNI (Festival Seni) at KTT last year after I won the singing competition together with Shin Chian (My duet partner). And, that's all because of being FORCED in the first place by Miss Aifaa. (At first, I don't like it. But at the end, I really appreciate it).

Singing at the 5 Stars Hotel last year was actually a NO from me. I don't want to sing and perform at first. But because of Miss Aifaa and the lecturers (not forgotten my friends), I performed for them.

Singing at Church (not in choir, but solo) was totally a new experience in different atmosphere I breathed in. And yea, it raises my confident in singing. Thank you to all of you who involve directly or indirectly in making me believing in myself back one more time.

And I've decided, if I can't make it to be a doctor, I'm gonna sing! I've palnned and actually was waiting for the Akademi Fantasia (AF) audition on 28 January 2011 at Promenade Hotel, Kota Kinabalu Sabah. Trying is better than just giving up.

If not singing, I might be joining a retreat called Retreat Panggilan at Bundu Tuhan. (Like what I've planned in 2008 but was totally against my parents permission). I like serving, giving and helping others. If not physically (doctor) and emotionally (singer), I prefer to be socially and spiritually (seminarians or a priest). Maybe for some people this is a joke from me, but here I'm telling you the truth that this isn't a joke.

However, God is so great! What ever happen to my life, I will just give my best and let God decide the best for me, in according to His will.

So, 24 January had decided that I am going to India to pursue my study in medicine, and will become a doctor. Amen! I'm so grateful with what God had giving me, and I won't give up on that.

What people said about 'we can't bring everything on a plate in one time, so we need to let go off something from it' is truly happened. I gave up my AF audition and the retreat because I don't want to make my situation become completely complicated later. But, I won't be giving up in singing and serving, because I can always do that in my life: to bless and be blessed!

I'm so glad to hear that few of my friends who went for the audition have successfully made it. Congratulation! I hope to see you guys on TV later (if you guys are chosen later).

Lastly in this post, 'Don't give up your dream easily. Do your best, and give your best! So that, at the end, even if you can't make it, you won't regret of any of them because you have successfully be yourself.'

God Bless.

A-Level

2011-01-27T00:51:00.007+08:00

24 January 2011 is a highlighted date for all of my batchmates in KTT. To be exact; 12.00pm!

That night before, I was hardly praying so that God can give me such a great strength that I had before when I was to receive my AS result last year. I drank coffee, and was planning to stay up (late), watched movies and tried my best to make myself packed with activities so that I won't think too much about my result tomorrow. Around 4.30am, I slept. I set my alarm clock at 11.00am, so that I have another 1 hour preparation before I decide to make a call. But surprisingly said, I woke up at 9.00am!

This I consider as a weird thing happened, because I usually sleep around 12.00am, and will only wake up around 11.00am.

So, I get up.

Around 11.30am, I received message from Faruqi, telling that I can check my result now. What?! I took my phone, and dialed Miss Syairah's number. Line was busy. Then, I tried to call admin. Again, line was busy. So, I waited for a while.

Exactly at 11.47am, I tried again; calling Miss Syairah. Yes, connected! Then she said "Hello!" Then, I mentioned my name, she started checking. I heard a soft voice 'Maegyvear, dia lepas'. And, Miss Syairah made it clear, "Tahniah Maegyvear. Awak lulus exam!"

God, I thank you so much!!!

Surprisingly, I didn't expect my Chemistry and Mathematics to get such a great grade. I thought, its gonna be terrible. Highest I probably might get, maybe C! But, God give me more than that! Thanks God.

Now, I'm not worry anymore when people ask me "When are you flying to India?". Because, now I can confidently answer their question. I had such a great joy! All the hardwork are now clearly paid.

I started to ask my friends their result. Then, one by one was telling me their results. Sadly said; many of them (my best friends) can't make it! I was like Oh my goodness! I texted Ricky. Then, Eric. Then, Joeffery. Someone told me about Willy's result. I was curious about Melzie's. Because, she was the only close-friend I didn't know about her result. I texted her, PENDING! I checked on her Facebook, no info. Lastly, I got info that she got 11. Another, WHAT?!

I was confused! Should I be happy or sad?

My friends here invited me for 'makan-makan' with them. They know my results. So, they cooked for me. I keep on smiling, showing that I am happy. But actually, I wasn't! That night, we supposed to have a youth meeting. But I locked myself in my room. Online. Check FB. Eshabell? Bosco? Another, WHAT?!

I tried my best to accept their results. I tried my best to remind myself that God has greater plan for themselves: Jeremiah 29:11. But I am sorry guys, during that time, maybe I was emotionally unstable.

While chatting with Eric, and listening to Chris Tomlin's song How Great is Our God, they I burst! I cried, oh my goodness!

I keep on reminding myself: God is so great. He gave me this result. He also gave them such a great result! And I believe, there must be something even greater for them!

I seldomly cry for something (unless it is something that really hard for me to take care with). But that night, I was crying because of the pain of losing my supportive and best friends in KTT! I tried to be 'macho' by not crying, but I have to learn also how to let it go. So, I let it go!

Eric Fenandez a.k.a Katy Perry:
Repeater. I always asked him to study with me for the final exam at CR or Library, just to make sure he study. And, he did! We always buy lunch from the Makcik outside, and eat it in the CR. It such a great pain knowing that he can't make it because he is the one I remembered the most in supporting aspect. What ever happen, he will support me! Giving such a great inspiration and motivation. He is the one who made me not giving up my CF President responsibility. Indirectly, he taught me how to mix with other people with his 'menyampah'-ness action (and I copied it: becoming Paling Menyampah Award winner)! He cheer up my life with his Ju-on faces, Katy Perry Teenage Dreamz world, and the only E-pose in captainball. (I won't be seeing it anymore. Huh!). I had such great memories with him!

Ricky Rack a.k.a Korean Fanatic!
I knew him since primary school. I won against him for Kadazan story telling competition. But, he beat me in English story telling competition! We suppose to be classmate during our secondary school (St. Micheal), but I got offer to be in boarding school. We were in the same hospital for exposure program. And, the first known friend in KTT when we registered. We came to CF together, and from the first CF, we knew our similarity: melatah! We always together whenever we go during the first week of orientation. He such a natural joker who made many jokes naturally. Azamut tutok of course! Bantaton nopo boroson! But, he is a good listener, and advicer too. If I have a problem, without any hesitation, I will share with him. I think, he is the one who understand me more than other people in KTT. When he told me that he can't make it, it was such a great WHAT to me. Ricky, tidak dapat lagi la saya sms kau jam 3am kalau kau tiada di KTT sudah!

Wilynstee Nayyan a.k.a Mama Malatup!

Don't ask me why I put your a.k.a as Mama Malatup! But maybe because that is our 'sumber mengumpat' last time. They called us The 3 Musketeers: Me, Ricky and Willy. Sometimes I asked him to jog with me: he did! And, always force him to make extra round. What is your best record, Willy? I learnt a lot from him too. So passionate about Christians: such a good example. He always accept himself of who he is (absolutely great Willy). He is such a creative, and the best dancer I ever know. Last time, he can't sing. But by singing in CF: He now can sing! Willy, who will accompany me in our video recording anymore? Who will accompany me for dinner? Who will teach us the dancing moves if got performance? Who will be my partner for sesi meluahkan perasaan at up the hill? And, stop buying Mustika where ever Bookstore you go!

Joeffery a.k.a Big Fat Joe!
Repeater too. When I know that my AS Physics is C, I tried to motivate my friends not to giving up. And, he appreciate me much by telling all my sms to Miss Syikin (you shouldn't do that Joe, but I thank you for appreciating me). What ever activities in CF, he is my great supporter! He is the one with the best praise and worship I ever experienced in CF. He is the one who will help me to carry keyboard in St. Theresa Church! We spent many of our time studying together in CR and Library too for our final exam. After Church, he always come to my apartment, and we started mengumpah. Hehe. He is a great advicer, and always kacau me all the time! At the end, he become melatah too! Haha. And, when I make a joke, he always laugh although for me that is not funny. He always menyampah if I say something. When he asked me whether they can stay in my apartment for the last week in KTT, 100% I said YES! We slept outside my room, and Joeffery makan ruang sangat banyak! Joe, who will laugh for my not-so-funny jokes next time?

Melzie a.k.a ahjumma!
My Orientation groupmate, that's why I know her hyper-ness earlier. Too annoying for the first time, but after a while, she was the environment-mood-changer with her non-stopping mouth all the time. I won't be seeing her jumping (like a frog) around KTT anymore. When she called me Sunbae, I was like "What? Am I a dog to her?" After I know the meaning of Sunbae, I want her to call me sunbae forever. Ceh! Although she is SHORT and SMALL: She got such a big heart to God, and her ideas + advices always touched my heart. People said, we hate each other? I came to her, and asked her "Are we fighting?" Haha. If we fight, it is just because of my menyampah-ness. She is a teacher too; who always teach the guys how to become a gentleman (Ricky prefer the word 'teach' to be 'mock'). But I think, she find it hard for her to learn how to become a lady/feminin. But for the 1.5year, she did improve her feminin-ness too, especially when she found a good looking guys anywhere. She likes posing in front of the camera (but always kalah if I'm in that picture too). Whatever she taught us (like a mummy/aunty), I learnt a lot from her too! Thanks a lot Melzie! Remember your promise not to call other Sunbae except me (does this sounds weird?)

Eshabell a.k.a.....Esha!
My classmate! My best classmate! Like to play guitar. Very good in badminton. Active in sport, and never say NO if I ask her to play guitar for CF. We played musics in Church too. Best mengumpat dengan Esha because of her loghat: bukannnn (Muni dan Opie mesti ketawa ne)! If we walk together, she always be in my left side because she said that it is more convenient and comfortable for her. She added: a girl must be at the left side of a guy. Ya kah? It such a great pain of knowing that she didn't make it because she owe me something! I taught her my first CF Song: I believe. I really hope that she can play that song during KI and I'll be singing it as a solo in CF. Who's going to play the musics now? Esha, I'll promise you to learn guitar, so that one day we can play guitar together.

Last time, it was hard for me to accept the fact that I wont be seeing you guys in KTT anymore. But, now I let it go. I believe that there must be reasons why God gave you this and why He gave me this. What ever happen, don't forget our friendship ya! I wish you guys all the best in what ever destination you guys chose. Don't forget to keep the faith and be stronger to God. If got opportunity, (maybe this is such a tough request from me) do send me to India please?

May God bless you all.

Orang Normal?

2011-01-13T12:10:00.005+08:00

Wow!

Last Sunday, I sang and performed on stage. One song from Jimmy Palikat (Nikki's brother): Tanak Kampung. I felt so touched when I received such a great respond and support from the audience
(that I called them: my fans.) Hehe.

Then, they requested me to sing one more song. Huh. So, I sang Wali Band's song: Cari Jodoh! After 2 performances, I came down and met my fans! (Macam artis pula).

The best part was, there was a drunk guy that came to me and said,

"Wow, semakin handsome kau sekarangkan. Dulu, kau sangat pemalu!"

Haha. Don't focus on the whole sentence. But, look at the highlighted word: PEMALU! Nasib baik lelaki mabuk tu tak describe saya sebagai

pendiam dan pemalu!

At least, there is someone who agreed that I am Pemalu & Pendiam. That is so ME!

But, my happiness turn into the feeling of full with curious when he started to say, "Saya sangkakan kau tak kawan orang-orang normal."

WHAT?!

Then, I asked him, "Maksud kau? Apa maksud kau orang-orang normal?"

He answered me, "alaah, orang-orang normal la. Yang macam kami, moginum (drink alcoholic drink) dan pukul orang (gang fight). Saya ingatkan kau kawan orang-orang alim saja!"

P/S: Haha. Well, for me, we should be friend with everybody. Because, all of us are God's creation; human being! But, it is very important for you to control yourself and just be careful. The way you bring up your personality is how you will create either good or bad impression and perspective of them at you.

First Post in 2011

2011-01-05T10:01:00.004+08:00

First of all, I want to say so sorry to those who texted me for New Year, but I can't or didn't reply their message. I was busy the whole week, and during that night, I was on stage.

Hey there, Happy New Year 2011! May this year brings you more happiness with a healthy life. Not forgotten, get ready for the new challenges that might come through to you this year ya!

Well, where should I start blogging?

I remember, the last time I online was on 30 December, last year. Quite a long time is it? Well, let me start with few photos during our youth photography session:

Never come across my mind that my Church has a great landscape for photography shooting! No wonder, we won in a second place for the best Church Landscape for the whole Sabah!

Caroling: Tonight gonna be our last Caroling! You might be asking: WHY TOO LATE? Ask Penampang-ians. Especially those under Penampang Parish. Let me explain a little bit, we do Caroling after christmas because most of the songs are telling us that Jesus is already born. Before Christmas, we have 4 weeks of Advent. After Advent, then Christmas. After Christmas, then Caroling. So, we will only pick songs that bring the message that Jesus is already born. Such as, Joy to the World, Oh Holy Night, Angels we have heard on high. etc etc.

On 26 December, I was the DJ for our Youth Party at St. Peter & Paul Hall. That party was awesome, with youth and friends having fun in celebrating Christmas together! I perform few songs also, performing like a real of 'my concert' (perasan!). Haha.

From 30 until 31 December, 2010: I was extremely busy preparing for our New Year Celebration. I was the Emcee. I tell you, I am deadly tired! My voice now? Ohhh...serak-serak rock basah gitu! I was the Emcee from 2.00pm until 2.00am:

Photography Session

Senam Robik Before we start our Evening Activities

Registration

Larian Tahun Baru

Sukaneka: This is what we called it Rampanau. Do you want to try?

Sukaneka: Tiup gula dalam tepung

Sukaneka: Susun Bata!

Golongan Veteran: They were in charge of Tiket Bertuah: Our Kampung always do work together, semangat perpaduan dan kemasyarakatan masih maintain!

Tired, but maintain smile!

This Kids are so cute! They perform choir: Gloria. And seriously, they are superb. They won for the Christmas Choir Competition, Parish Penampang Level 2010.

Oh Holy Night!

2010-12-24T13:51:00.002+08:00

Today is 24th December 2010!

O holy night, the stars are brightly shining;
It is the night of the dear Savior’s birth!
Long lay the world in sin and error pining,
Till He appeared and the soul felt its worth.
A thrill of hope, the weary soul rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.

Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices!
O night divine, O night when Christ was born!
O night, O holy night, O night divine!

Led by the light of faith serenely beaming,
With glowing hearts by His cradle we stand.
So led by light of a star sweetly gleaming,
Here came the wise men from Orient land.
The King of kings lay thus in lowly manger,
In all our trials born to be our friend!

P/s: Christmas is not about new shirt or dress, or maybe fashion. But, its all about celebrating and thanks giving for the birth of our Saviour, Jesus Christ! Let us pray for peace, faith, hope and love! Not forgotten to pray for those who are suffering from war, poverty and starvation. Happy Blessed Christmas guys!

Christmas Call

2010-12-23T08:54:00.006+08:00

I'm singing solo for Gospel (Alleluia) at Church tomorrow night.

This will be my first time singing during Holy Mass (Liturgy)!

Actually, they have already asked me to sing long time ago. But I refused to do so. Because I am afraid and not confident! But for now, for Christmas, I'll take it as a challenge: stepping out from my comfort zone, and receiving THE CALL!

This is not the real photo of my church. Just try to 'picturize' it!

P/s: A bit worry because I'm not used to it. Performing on stage and in Church is totally two different situation. But I was thinking, if mother Mary (without hesitation) received the power of the holy spirit to give birth to Jesus, why we can't even do a simply thing (by singing) as a call and blessing?

But still: God, help me!

Towards Christmas: We Are The Reason

2010-12-19T23:10:00.003+08:00

Christmas is coming. Advent?

How is your preparation towards Christmas this year?

Not much words, just a song I would like to share with you guys:

WE ARE THE REASON

As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we’d find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift
Of our lives

We are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the year went by
We learned more about gift
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man Hug crying in the rain
All because of love
All because of love

I’ve finally found the reason for living
It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I’ll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

"Have a wonderful Advent towards your Blessed Coming Christmas!!!
God Bless."

Ujian Undang-undang Komputer

2010-12-13T15:57:00.003+08:00

I made it!

Yeah, I got 49/50! Huh. If only I can get 50/50???

Never mind la. 1 mistake only. Still, thanks God!

And, there is something that I wanna share here. I went to RILEK Donggongon (the place where I took the computer test). I sat on Computer Number 8. (Kira di hujung-hujung sudah!). And, there is a guy sitting at Computer 7.

I started the test with Ujian Buta Warna: Yes, Lulus! Then, Ujian Nombor-nombor; again: Yes, Lulus! But when I started Ujian Undang-undang, the guy at Computer 7 was nervous and kept on saying:

"Kenapa tidak bergerak ne? Geng, tulung geng!"

I was confused either to help him or just ignore him. Because, there is a camera there! And it was strictly reminded that we can't communicate!

But still, I looked at him and told him:

"Masukkan nombor IC dan untuk status: Klik pada Orang Awam Malaysia"

(Suara dengan nada pekerja kaunter!)

Then, I focused back on my test. Gosh, I wasted my time. Huh.

But, he kept on saying "Kenapa ni? Kenapa ni?"

I helped him. But until the third time, I can't concentrate on my test, so calmly I told him,

"Lebih baik encik berjumpa dengan kakak di kaunter tu ya". But actually, I was stressed that time because I can't really focus and wasted my time. There is few more minutes left!

Huh. He went and met her. Actually, that guy do not know how to use computer. I wonder whether he pass the test or not.

Kasihan jugalah tengok lelaki tu! I wanted to help him, but I can't! At the same time, I was concentrating on my own test.

But really thanks God, I got 49/50!

Beating my elder brother and sister: They got 48/50 and 47/50 last time!

Haha.

P/S: Some people out there need our help. Sometimes, we got angry! But, be professional. And, try your best first to help him. Need to be reminded also that, we can't help everyone. And, we can't solve everything. There is something that we need to left behind. BUT, always asked yourself: if you in that kind of situation (the guy), how do you feel if people ignored you?

That is how they will fill too.

Adios.

God Bless.

Painting!

2010-12-10T09:19:00.008+08:00

Currently, I'm busy with few stuff:

Meeting (For 31 December 2010 Event)

As usual, they chose me to be the emcee. And, I am also one of the Event Coordinator. This is not a youth activity. This is a big event, involving the whole 'kampung'. I haven't yet do my Kertas Kerja!
Tomorrow will be the meeting.

Carols By Candlelight

This year song will be 'Bethlehem Doiti Jesus'. We want to make it awesome this year. So, most of the night, we'll be having practice.
And, tonight is our first practice.

Driving Licence

Going to sit for my Computer Test next week.

Painting My House

Busy helping my dad to paint and renovate our house.

Youth Revolution

I came out with this idea after 1.5years staying and experiencing the greatest love in Campus Revolution which caused a great revolution inside me. Preparing 'Kertas Kerja' for KBP too. Dear my CF Friends, do pray for me so that I can make it here! Well, honestly speaking, this is my 'real world' challenge. And, it is not easy. I'm very sure, you guys understand and can imagine how.

P/S: So, please do forgive me if I can't join any other event after outside. Meeting with friends? Next time ya. When everything is settled, then I will surely meet with you guys. I still have many days left for holiday. God Bless.

Di Antara Seribu Bintang (Buat Maegyvear)

2010-12-09T11:13:00.007+08:00

Last night, I can't really sleep. Then, I sat on my table inside my room, and played my beloved keyboard. I don't know what to do next. So, I looked at my book shelf and saw my SASILA's Collection.

I opened back SASILA SMESH year 2008.

And, found something that waken me up! I read on page 81.

I was so touched after I read the poem that was written by my teacher; Cikgu Datu Ramlee, for me during my last and final year in SMESH.

Di Antara Seribu Bintang (Buat Maegyvear)

Dia di antara seribu bintang

Bersilau indah di taman angkasa

Bersinar menyinari alam maya

Di antara sejuta hamparan cinta

Hidupnya alpa penuh sederhana

Langkah bersahaja tuturnya berbahasa

Pahit getir bisa digalasnya

Demi ibu dan ayah tercinta

Berbanggalah ibu yang melahirkan

Bersyukurlah ayah yang membesarkan

Hadirnya menyeri sebuah kehidupan

Penyambung generasi citra keunggulan

Berkilaulah engkau wahai bintangku

Bertekad cemerlang menimba ilmu

Perjuangan gigihmu diiringi restu

Kemenanganmu pastinya ditunggu

Ikhlas dari seorang pendidik

-DR-

Thank you so much teacher. I really thank you for what you have done to me, since I was in form 1. I realised that, without the presence of you in SMESH, my life will be harder then. May God bless you, your health, and your life! One important thing that you need to know: I will always appreciate my teachers, no matter what people told me badly about them. Because, the thing that I count is the good things you did and the blessings you gave in my life! God Bless.

P/S: Nothing much I can do to show how much I appreciate you. But I hope with this post, it can shows that I really do appreciate you, and all my teachers.

Thinking of getting a Girlfriend?

2010-12-09T10:17:00.004+08:00

Surprised?

Haha.
Writing this post just to fill in my free time.

I'm not saying that I desperately need one. Oh please!

But, I just want to share few ideas with you guys, readers.

We heard a lot of thing about this matter, kan?

Cinta Monyet? I believe most of us have experienced it before, at least one in a life time! MOST. Not everyone. Paling kurang pun, pernah bercinta dengan monyet la. Hehe. Kidding!

I'm not saying that this is wrong or not appropriate. Because it depends on how you handle this matter actually.

But there is one interesting thing that have opened my eyes long time ago after being told by someone:

"Kalau tak bersedia untuk memikul komitmen, jangan ghairah nak berkomitmen."

And for me, there are 3 things that a guy should have/get before they plan to be in a relationship.

Having a stable job/career

By hook or by crook, you have to get a job! How you want to support yourself, your partner, and in the future, your family?

Get your own money, please!

Takkan lah nak bercinta pun masih lagi nak minta duit mak bapak, memalukan! And sometimes (most of the time), burdening them.

Can drive a car!

Some of you might think that this is not important. But for me, it is one of the MUST in list. So that you can bring her for traveling, dating, or even to fetch her from somewhere.

P/S: Counting the days left towards 2020. Apabila tercapainya My Wawasan 2020.

Weekends (04.12.10-05.12.10 ) Journal

2010-12-06T14:46:00.001+08:00

KURSUS PENDIDIKAN PEMANDU (KPP)

This is the day I've been waiting for! Don't ask me why. So, I followed my dad and reached at KMK around 7.40am. It supposed to start at 8.30am! Thanks God, I'm not alone. Got few people there, and I guess they are also a learner.

I looked around: huh, no one I know! Because I'm so pendiam & pemalu, so I chose to sat down alone, and waiting for any of them to go and say "hi" to me. Yes, got 1! A guy. Huh. I went registered and thus my Rm666 is now gone.

8.30am; I entered Dewan C as what the KMK Staff told me to go. 8.30am-8.45am was for Ujian Buta Warna. And, I've finished within 5 minutes only! With tremendously awesome results, I got 100% correct.

Then, I don't know what should I do, because next is a ceramah yang sungguh menghiburkan. I went to canteen because that Ceramah will only start at 9.30am. I bought a bottle of mineral water with tuna sandwich which cost me Rm2.50. For breakfast? No, just for me to fatten myself.

I sat on a table, at the corner of the canteen, alone! Wasting my time by journaling. And preparing module for my younger brothers and sister during their holiday so that they won't waste their time a lot. Get ready for tuition ya adik-adikku.

On interesting part why I stayed at the canteen until 9.30am: they played Church Songs at the canteen. It is like a 'wow'. Then I imagined myself if let say the cafe in my college play the same songs. I will surely become your 'pelanggan setia'.

During the Ceramah, I DIDN'T SLEEP AT ALL! *Clap Clap*. Credit is given to the first speaker who made the talk fun and FUN! And, I managed to become the Peserta Cemerlang as what I've promised before, by not sleeping and actively asked questions! Yes!!! Another *Clap Clap*.

After 5 hours KPP, I followed my dad back to my home, and I drove! Now, I'm not peserta cemerlang anymore for breaking the traffic rules.

Reached home, played Volleyball with my friends! And, we won! Yeah.

At 7.00pm, I attend a meeting for 31st December event with few Leaders and Youth. As usual, they chose me to become the Emcee.

After meeting, few friends asked me to join them to lepak at Restoran Maimunah Donggongon. At 10.00pm! Then, went back home before 12.00am. Huh. So, tired!

And SUNDAY, after Church, in the evening, few my friends came to my house, and karaoke-ing!!! Haha. My weekends hobbies!

Stop, read, and think for a while

2010-12-03T13:02:00.007+08:00

Well, I learnt a lot nowadays.
(Yes, everyone did too, everyday)!

CONFIDENT:

Different people have different perspective in their life. But I think, one of the thing that can really separate and differentiate human being (socially) is how they 'boast' or be confident of who they are.

Yes, it is all about CONFIDENT!

I like to observe and learn from people around me; though they come from a poor family, not beautiful, ugly, SHORT, fat, or totally not from high-class people, BUT, they are much more OUTSTANDING compared to others. Why? CONFIDENT.

That is how the first class mentality people do.

Look around you. And, observe each and everyone of them:

How do they talk?

How do they walk?

How do they bring themselves to the middle of the world?

When people sing, though their voice is not that good, but because of their CONFIDENT, people see their performance as something OUTSTANDING.

I watched X-Factor in YouTube.

And, one of the reason why the panel give them a 'Yes' is because of their CONFIDENT, and thus becoming OUTSTANDING. CONFIDENT is one of the 'X factor' that not everyone has.

Steve Brookstein, the first X-Factor winner that was given a second chance during his audition. Why? At first, he brought not a good image of himself. He came with just a little confident of himself, his voice and his personality. He is not so outstanding. And I think, if I am the panel, I will too say either 'Yes' for his voice, 'No' for his personality, and it can be 'maybe' too. I like his voice! Especially when he sang Elton John's and Phil Collins' songs. I agreed that he got the voice! But, you can't convince people, or make people believe in you if you yourself lack of confident!

So, how about you?

Are you OUTSTANDING enough?

How CONFIDENT you are in public?

P/S: But remember, being confident doesn't mean that we need to be proud, boast, and do not respect other. Be CONFIDENT, be OUTSTANDING, and at the same time, be HUMBLE and RESPECT others. That is the real meaning of the real 'CONFIDENT' people.

This is just a piece of idea of mine.
Stop, read and think for a while.

God Bless.

CF Farewell Awards 2010

2010-11-30T14:54:00.000+08:00

My beloved CF Juniors made few awards for us during our Farewell, Last CF in 2010. And, surprisingly, I won!!!

"Saya sangat terharu dan berterima kasih kepada para pengundi yang mengundi saya. Tanpa anda semua, siapalah saya di dunia seni ini."

Haha. By the way, I love you guys (every single of you) so much!!! The effort that you made to make this video had already describe how you guys really appreciate us. (And, we appreciate it too!!!)

Most Innocent Senior: John Lau

This is seriously unfair: I should win this award!

Most Talented in Musics: Eshabell Gloria

Most Hyperactive: Melissa Nuah

This is the only award that I 100% agree for the winner. Unbeatable. No compromise!

Most Nice Hair Style: Ricky Rack

"How is my hair" said Ricky.

Most Studios: Ling Chieng Jiun

Most Sweet Couple:

GARK (Mark Noel & Gavin Man)

I have no ideas of what is going on here.

Most Perasan: Maegyvear Pimid

Saya sungguh terharu dengan penghargaan seperti ini. Mudah-mudahan, kita dapat melahirkan lebih ramai individu yang pemalu dan pendiam (seperti saya) untuk memartabatkan diri kita.

Okay, this is too menyampah already. Hehe. By the way, to my beloved juniors, you guys must take care ya. I believe, all of you can do well at KTT. I'm sorry to Corine, Yong Kuang, Jacinta and Joseph because I can't manage to talk with you due to time limitation. However, what ever you do, GIVE YOU BEST and DON'T GIVE UP. Learn how to surrender things to God, as He knows the best for you. Take Care, and God Bless.

Graduation, BTN & Flight to Sabah!

2010-11-29T15:40:00.009+08:00

I've been busy with few activities and events recently. So, I can't manage to update my blog. However, I'm gonna post all in one today. Updated.

GRADUATION

Finally, I graduated for Cambridge A-Level programme on 20 November 2010 at Hotel Pan Pacific. Started with rehearsal from 2.00pm, and finished event at around 2.00am. Too tired, that is for sure! The graduation night was awesome! With theme: Masquerade! All performance were spectacular, superb! Though they were not perfect, but everyone was trying and giving their best. Awesome guys!

My performance? Oh ya, I managed to change my turn, I'm the first performer. It was okay, but actually I felt disappointed myself a bit, because I did better during rehearsal. And that night ,I'm too tired. Plus, the musics was not loud enough while I started singing, causing me to lose focus, and forget most of the lyrics! So sad. Never mind la. Straight away after singing, I went and ate a lot! Haha.

And, there is 10 awards announced that night:

1. Best Student for Biology Subject:

- Ibtisam Yusoff

2. Best Student for Physics Subject:

- Tan Kwan Tsien

3. Best Student for Chemistry Subject:

- Fong Chia Ying

4. Best Student for Mathematics Subject:

- Tan Loon Han

5. Best Student for IELTS Subject:

- Thaneermalai Narayanan

6. Best Student for Academic (Overall):

- Fong Chia Ying

7. Best Student for Co-curriculum (Overall):

- Maegyvear Pimid

8. Best Student for 2010 (Overall):

- Ahmad Faruqi

9. Prince Award 2010:

- Maegyvear Pimid

10.Princess Award 2010:

- Najwa Farhah

Congratulation! Thanks to all lecturers, and also my fellow friends. You guys made the year! Without all of you, I'm not sure how life is, and how is the colour will be if only Pakcik Parang at KTT. By the way, you guys are awesome! Pictures of the night:

Opening Performance by Willy, Ricky, Eric, Aliff, Melzie, Jeannette, and Sharlini.

Best Student for Chemistry & Best Academic Award (Overall) Winner:Fong Chia Ying (Right)

Best Student for Physics: Tan Kwan Tsien (left)

Best Student for Mathematics: Tan Loon Han

Best Student for IELTS: Thaneermalai (sitting)

Best Student for Co-Curriculum (Overall): Maegyvear Pimid

My Dinner Table-mate

Best Student 2010 (Overall): Ahmad Faruqi

Prince and Princess 2010: Maegyvear Pimid & Najwa

Graduation Dinner Class of November 2010

JPA A-Level Program (Medicine) Kolej Teknologi Timur

BTN

BTN was not boring as what I have expected it to be. It was fun and the most important thing is, I've learn a lot of thing. During Pendidikan Moral, we played Mafia, Angel and Villagers. Guess what, I'm the ANGEL!!! Undeniable, I am an angel! Hehe.

Well, citizen of Malaysia; I encourage you guys to read and really understand the Perlembagaan Malaysia before you want to make any conclusion or judgement to the government. I'm not under politic here, but let us be bonded in 1Malaysia with peace, joy and love!

FLIGHT MH2608

I set my alarm at 5.45am so that I can continue packing few of my unpacked stuff. BUT, I don't know why, my alarm didn't work! John wake me up at 6.38am because he can't sleep due to mosquitoes bite! (Yes, thanks mosquito!). I randomly packed my stuff, simply put in as much as I can without planning and furthur thinking. I am rushing to airport!!

At airport: okay, this is the most risky, challenging and dramatic flight I ever had. Proven by John Lau and Jin Xiang (they sent me to airport). Why? Erm. Firstly, I booked luggage with maximum 20kg ONLY. But guess what, my luggage was around 50kg!!! Before check-in, I know that I need to be emotionally prepared because I will surely need to pay for extra luggage. 1kg extra = Rm15. If, 30 kg extra? (Take your calculator, and calculate yourself!). I prayed! Throughout my way to KLIA, I can't focus and for sure, was really worried!

Now, at the check-in counter: After some discussion, the staff said, I need to find people to share the luggage. And, he suggested me to a chinese lady which is having trip/holiday to Sabah too. I went and met her, asking whether I can share luggage or not. But, she just simply said: NO! John help to me talk with her in Chinese, but still, she said: NO! I give up, and went back to the counter. With my innocent face, the staff then allow 2 of my luggage with 23kg to be brought by cargo. But I still have another 2 extra luggage. If both of them, the weight is around 25kg. John said, "I'll help you to post one of the bag". But I said to them that I try to bring both my bags first, if cannot, then only I'll ask John to help me later.

SURPRISINGLY, they allow me to bring that bags!!!! I reached Sabah with all my luggage without paying any! Really thanks God!!! Every counter I passed is like a thousand heartbeat! I was worried if they said "Adik comel, adik tak boleh bawa beg terlalu banyak". But I know, God can help me through. Really thanks God. And, to Jin Xiang and John Lau too.

My flight was awesome! I was sitting next to on-holiday-senior-steward. We talked a lot of thing. And I learnt a lot of info regarding Malaysia Airlines, and steward/stewardess. While talking, the 'ketua pramugara' of my flight also came to us, and talk with us. The on-holiday-senior-steward is already 16 years working with MAS. While, the 'ketua pramugara' is working around 14 years already. Totally experienced! I feel like VVIP during that flight though I'm not sitting in the first class/ business class. The best part is when they said, the minimun height requirement to become a steward is 156cm! Yes, I'm in! But, you cannot wear speck. Okay, now I'm out. One new and interesting info I knew that day was: to become a steward, you can't or must not have any scar. They will picture you naked first. Wow!!!!

Lastly, the 'ketua pramugara' asked me: "How old are you?". And I answered him, "19". Then, he said, "Okay, still young. Still virgin!" Haha. Both of them laugh. Then, the 'ketua pramugara' told me, "you can join me to hotel hayat later if you want to". LoL. This part is really disgusting!

But still, I feel honoured and like VVIP that day, having conversation with 'ketua pramugara' some more. Even, while transit to Labuan, I went out, and the on-holiday-senior-steward follow me, talking with me the whole journey. He kept on saying "Wait me ya, wait me ya" if he went to toilet. Euuww. Thanks God, nothing happened! Haha.

Okay, thanks all for today.

Happy Holiday.

God Bless!

Friday, 19 November 2010

2010-11-19T18:04:00.000+08:00

When I saw my friends being very committed and busy preparing for the Graduation Night, I just feel awesome and glad that at least 'oh, I have this kind of friends here'.

YEAH, TOMORROW WE ARE GRADUATING!

It's gonna be an awesome night when everyone is dressing up, putting different fashion of mask and even the performances (can wait to see them). Talking about performance, it terrified me when Miss Aifaa told me that I'm gonna be the last performer. Meaning that, I'm singing before the Graduation Dinner ends. But, I DON'T LIKE IT! It's gonna be a trouble later. Why?

1. For sure, I can't enjoy others performance because I haven't perform yet!
2. I can't eat as much as I can. Later will effect my singing. Arggh. Should I bring a tupperware?
3. Save the best for the last: Can I reach that expectation?
4. I prefer to be the first performer so that I can enjoy the night!
5. If I perform earlier, I can simply shout and scream to support my friends, but because I am the last, I can't do so aggressively. If not, no more voice to sing. Huh.

And yet today I feel so tired. Practicing here and there. I can't 100% memorize the lyrics yet. And, my throat now is overuse a bit already. Ayoyo. Hopefully, tomorrow I can make it.

"Maegyvear, the stage is yours. The microphone is yours. And, the camera is yours"

(My motivation)

I just hope that I can focus singing instead of over-posing. Haha.

P/s: Preparing for rosary tonight! My last rosary in KTT this year. Huhu. See you guys later. God Bless.

I believe, My Saviour God

2010-11-17T18:21:00.001+08:00

The songs from Britney Spears, Katy Parry and Lady Gaga is symbolizing (or is written for) Eric Fenandez (according to Melzie's blog). But this song is written based on my journey as a CF President for 2009/2010.

I BELIEVE, MY SAVIOUR GOD

There's a time to be born

And, there's a time to die

There's a time to cry

And, there's a time to laugh

There's a time you fall

And, there's a time you bounce back

Cause Jesus, my Saviour God

Chorus:

I believe in You, I believe in You

My Saviour God, my Saviour God

Trust the Lord, my Jesus Christ

The blood, the cross, the everlasting love

Don't be surprised for the trials you'll go through

As if something strange is happening around

And His love is more that what we've thought

Is greater than what we have caught and fought

And, His plans are greater than our dreams

I believe, my Saviour God

P/S: It is not completely telling you the whole journey. Because everything here is completely complicated. I composed this song during my last week AS Exams around June, 2010. And actually, planning to sing it by tonight (17 November 2010), during our CF Farewell for seniors. But, I don't feel like I want to sing it tonight. But, my promise, when I come back KI (Amen!), I'll surely sing this and bring this as a part of my testimony; I believe, My Saviour God!

Thanks to all my friends, my seniors, and all those people who have walked with me throughout my year here. Not forgotten, the juniors! AND, special honor to my CF Committee 2009/2010! You guys did really teach me a lot, and my experience of becoming CF President was tremendously awesome and memorable. I learnt more about the real meaning of life as a Christian.

Though I'm not perfect, but God really provides me everything!

God Bless.

Countdown

2010-11-12T12:27:00.000+08:00

4 more days before I finish my A-level Examination,

8 more days before Graduation Night,

15 more days before going back Sabah.

Time flies so fast!

That's all what I can say now

Pride VS Humility

2010-10-21T15:51:00.002+08:00

One of the sins we find hardest to confess is the sin of pride? We are ready to confess our other sins- anger, unforgiveness, lying, beating our children, scolding others – but find it hard to confess our pride. Pride has a way of hiding itself. We hide many things from others because we think that if they came to know about it, they would no longer respect us or like us. That’s pride. Pride means that we do not want to lose face. So we lie, we exaggerate, we make fun of others, we become jealous of others, we criticize others.

I think that many of us would not want to pray like the Pharisee in today’s gospel. So we often criticize our own achievements and try to humble ourselves before others. We will say things like: “No, I’m not clever. Actually I am very stupid.” Or when others praise us, we will try and say things like: “no it was just luck.” We try to be polite. When we serve food that we have cooked to others, we will often say that it is common and simple food although we may have spent the whole morning and afternoon trying to make the most delicious dish to impress our friends. Very often our own self-criticism is an attempt at soliciting greater praises from others. Rather than true humility, every time when we brush off a compliment from someone else, it is an indication of our pride. We actually want them to praise us more.

What is true humility? It isn’t self-criticism, as I had explained. True humility is the ability to recognize both my weaknesses and my strengths. True humility is about knowing oneself. True humility is recognizing that we are nothing without God and that all that we have received comes from God alone. When we criticize ourselves we are criticizing God –we are saying that He has made a mistake with us. That’s not humility but pride! A truly humble person is able to receive compliments and recognize his own strength because he knows that this is a gift from God.

In the second reading, St. Paul appears to be boasting about himself when he says: “I have fought the good fight to the end; I have run the race to the finish; I have kept the faith …” But St. Paul is not blowing his own trumpet. He is actually giving praise to God. He knows that he would not be able to do it alone. He knows that he is able to do all these things only with the power of God. If we read the second part of the second reading, we will see this. He writes: “But the Lord stood by me and gave me power, so that through me the whole message might be proclaimed for all the pagans to hear … The Lord will rescue me from all evil attempts on me, and bring me safely to his heavenly kingdom. To him be glory for ever and ever.”

That’s true humility. To be able to speak of all the blessings that we have received from God and give him glory. We are not praising our own achievements when we speak of them. We are not boasting when we speak about how God has blessed us. Rather, it is God who is praised and glorified. Without God nothing is possible. We need to give testimony to God’s blessings. False humility hides the glory of God. False humility is actually pride that seeks praises for oneself.

P/S: Truly an inspirational nourishment from Fr. Micheal Chua. Thanks, Father. God Bless you.

Inactive

2010-10-02T15:32:00.000+08:00

I won't be actively online anymore for a certain period of time due to few reasons.

I'm sorry for the late friend-request-approval in Facebook, late reply message, or any inconvenience.

About this blog, I will update it later (when everything is settled down).

Keep following.

See you guys next time!

-God Bless-

Babai Sabah!

2010-09-17T21:19:00.002+08:00

I'm coming back to college tomorrow;

My flight is at 6.05am!!!

I had so much fun during this holiday.

But sometimes, feel sad and worry too.

I'm not sure whether I'm wasting my time,

or I should do so before I start back my battle!

2 weeks holiday is not enough for me;

to spend my time with my family and friends.

But, 2 weeks holiday is killing me too.
Final exam is exactly 40 more days!
Think positive, everything gonna be fine.

What should I say about my holiday?

Erm. I'm too packed, until I can't even have a chance to blog.

So, that is my holiday!

I'm coming back to college with new hopes! New-fresh-healed feelings from failure and disappointment. God, help me to start it back with hope, faith and love.

See you guys!

God Bless.

Selamat Hari Raya!

2010-09-10T10:31:00.000+08:00

I'm not Muslim. But, I'm really glad to wish all my Muslim Friends, Teachers (primary or secondary), Lecturers, Bloggers, and to all who know my existence;

Simple Updates!

2010-09-08T17:38:00.003+08:00

Sekarang adalah musim buah-buahan. Yeah! I have a lot of fruits here. Buah Cempedak, Buah Langsat, Buat Rambutan, Buat Mangga! Oh my goodness.

I've realised something; saya semakin pendiam dan pemalu.
Don't try to argue!

2 weeks holiday is awesome! But, risky. 49 more days before real A2!

I can't wait for the Party Sausage we have planned last night!

MegaLong, bersabar! I will come later.

I want to karaoke!

Sad. But, relieved!

2010-09-07T12:57:00.000+08:00

Can I say that one of the most toughest thing to do in our life is to make a decision? Once you made it, there is no more turning back. About the risks waiting ahead, it is up to you how you gonna handle it with care later.

Since Sunday, my parents asked (actually a bit forcing and urging me) to change my ticket from 12hb to 18hb. I don't want! Because, I don't like to waste money. Next, I'm worry about my study. At home, there is a lot of temptation waiting ahead. I can't study. Exam is just around the corner. I brought my Chemistry and Biology books, but haven't touched yet. Why? I don't have the motivation to study at home. I prefer to relax and 'meditate' here.

But just now, as what I've promise to myself before, the price of the ticket on 18hb dropped! I was thinking, should I? But yet, still I can't decide it clearly. Then, I called my mother and listened to her advices. So, without further thinking, I changed my ticket! Oh my goodness. I'm so so so sad! But after a while, there is something that I've realised, and feel relieved about it.

1. Money is not the matter. We can find/dig for money. But, life and time with you family is much more precious.

2. If I come back on 12, I'm burdening myself to think about the transportation from KLIA to KTT. I'm burdening myself to think about how I'm gonna enter KTT. And, I'm burdening the warden to handle this matter. Basically, I'm burdening a lot of people. (I don't like to burden others. I prefer to carry that burden myself even though I seriously need helps about it. That is me.)

3. I'm torturing myself badly actually. Because of the facts that I have to face through, I have tortured and punished myself by killing the happiness in which I deserve to get in my life. Reality is harder than fantasy!

4. If I come back on 18, I can spend much more time with my family. Especially, with my brother, Melter who is going to sit for his UPSR on 22 September. I do hope that I can bring miracles on him by giving him intensive tuition. He is poor academically. I'm worry about him. I think that I am selfish if I go back on 12, because I just think about my needs, not his needs. I'm sorry brother.

5. My friend, Joeffery, adviced me to just follow what my parents adviced me to do. And, even my elder sister, Marcela, said the same think. Who knows, my parents instinction bring something meaningful? Who knows that maybe something bad gonna happened if I come back on 12? Parents are gifted in this kind of matter. So, it is better for me to just follow their order.

I'm sad actually. But, I feel relieved about it.

Thanks to all my friends who did help me by giving their own opinion about this matter. I really appreciate it! May God bless you all. Take care. Happy Holiday!

Monday (6 September 2010)

2010-09-06T20:24:00.003+08:00

Updating....

Yesterday, during Church, I challenged my younger brother to give all that he had in pockets for the offering in Church. He got Rm1.00. And felt so sad to give all of them. Of course la, budak-budak bah tu. But then, surprisingly, he did it! Yeah! I was touched to what he did. Then, I gave him back double. Rm2.00.

Yesterday also I gave new MP3 to my younger sister, Margaret. Why? To support her in SPM. As one of the motivational gift for her la. She likes musics just how I look at musics. So, I know exactly how she feels about this. So, my elder sister, Marcela, and I decided to buy her a new MP3. Thanks to John Lau for helping me to buy it online. With that MP3, I hope she can improve her study even better. She is staying in hostel. So, life they should probably be boring. (I think so). Enjoy your life sis!

Erm.

I'm coming back to college on 12 September. But, my Mom and Dad asked me to change it to 18 or 19 September. I'm hardly thinking about this. Maybe, for other people, they will surely and directly change their ticket. Plus, my parents said that they will pay for it. However, in my situation is different. First of all, I don't want to waste money to buy that new ticket. (If the price drop, maybe I can consider). Second, I'm worry! If too much holiday, it is not good for me. I want to study and revise. A2 is just around the corner. But yet, I still can't master all the topics taught by the lecturers.

However, I wanted to stay a bit longer too. Because, this year, my brother will be sitting for UPSR, and my sister will be sitting for SPM. I want to spend much time on teaching them as much as I can. I wanted them to achieve the greatest achievement they are able to reach. As a brother, it is my happiness to see them happy.

I'll surrender everything to God then.

Erm.

This evening, I received a message from Miss Azidah (lecturer in college). She told me that on 22 September, KTT is having MegaRaya. And, they have decided in meeting to choose to be the emcee. What? Me? Erm. I can't say no, but I hope things can be changed. However, if they really put trust in me, then, I will just do my best! It's not a big deal for me, because I used to be emcee for many events before; Unduk Ngadau, Pesta Maggi, Pesta Tagal, Pesta Kaamatan, KFC Events. So, I get familiar in handling events. But, I just worry about the languange I'm gonna use. Huh. Nevermind.

But this one, I don't really take it seriously. The dilemma of changing my ticket is more harder for me now.

On Sunday, I went to mandi sungai!!! Together with few of my friends. I can swim, how about you? Hehe. It was extremely fun! Here is some pictures of it. (I'm sorry, my handphone's camera is only 2MP). Enjoy:

HomeSweetHome

2010-09-04T11:51:00.001+08:00

My flight was delayed from 6.30pm to 7.15pm. Tapi apa saya peduli! Because, the most important thing is, I'm going back Sabah!

I met with few known friends in Airport yesterday. My Smeshian; Juniors: Adzmin, Khairuddin, Aisyah?? (Forgot her name), My batchmate; Natrah, Seniors; Khairunnisa Ghani. My Exposure Programme Friend; Bessima. And, I'm in the same flight with: Ricky, Sarah, Erna, Via, and Amee.

Let me tell you something: This is my worst-landing flight! The aeroplane bumped onto the land, and then almost lost it stability! I was holding my sit tightly. And, the only word that came out from my mouth is: GOD! Thanks God, everything was fine! Huh (Relieved).

Now, I'm home. Thank you very very much to my siblings for cleaning up my room. I'm too tired to do so, but really thanks them for cleaning without being asked to do so. Nanti saya belanja kamu! When I reached home, I ate first, then went to sleep! My dinner a.k.a supper was super nice! Even though it is simple, but I really missed home made food. Especially cooked by me parents. Love it!

Ricky messaged me: "Saya terdengar ni aunty melatah 'eh tonton bapa!'. Terus baru la saya rasa sudah sampai Sabah." I really like that message! I'm at Sabah now. Can't believe it! (Ceh, emosi habisss).

To my beloved juniors and friends in KTT, wait for you time later. To make you guys jealous:

I'm in Sabah now!

Hehe. Take care then.

Happy Holiday!

3 September 2010

2010-09-03T12:08:00.006+08:00

I just been officially finished with my Pre-A2 Examination today!
Feel so relieved.

Life is messing up with few things that suddenly came together,

which for sure overloaded me.

Now, I'm counting down the hours for going back to Sabah!

This is the time that I'm hardly waiting for; HOLIDAY!

People ask me; what will you do during the holidays?

Well, first of all, I want to spend most of my time with my family! First list listed!! Next, 1 week intensive tuition to my younger brothers and sisters! As do I, revision. Huhu. By hook or by crook, I have to. And not forgotten, time with my friends and youth; yesterday they called me already. They have 'booked' me for youth activities! Saturday night, 7.00pm; Pray-Over at one of my friend house. Okay. What else? Erm. I will buy a lot of food, and eat together with my family. I will cook a special chicken curry for them, and eat happily (wow). No matter what happen, Family come first (and not forgotten; God almighty).

I think the microphone and the loudspeaker at my home is hardly missing me already; karaoke! Yes! Also noted down. Haha. Olly and Eon (my beloved cousins) who will surely cry in smiles later (I think so), wait for me ya!

Huh. Can't wait! 6.30pm is my flight.

AK5112 AirAsia.

And guess what, my ticket's price this time is

RM26.00 only!

Rm 6.00 for tax, and Rm 20.00 for luggage.

And, ONE IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT!!!!

-Look down here-

I LOSS WEIGHT AGAIN!

For your information (this is not an important information by the way, but I don't care; I still want to tell you), I came here (KTT) 55kg. My first semester, I loss 5kg. Then, gain 2kg (yeah). But sadly to say, I loss 2 kg, again! Huhu. Why? I don't know. Maybe because I puasa also??? Hehe.

I am already underweight now.

Mum & dad, don't kill me with food later ya.

But, how come arr? I ate a lot. More than Ricky! But, I loss weight much than him. (He gained weight by the way). Haha!

Nevermind la. I don't care about it. Unless I have someone special, then I have to take care about myself then. Hehe. My statement: Selagi Wawasan 2020 belum tercapai, selagi itulah saya remain solo.

Okay guys. I'm crapping a lot here. Sorry

By the way, HAPPY HOLIDAY to all of you. Selamat Berpuasa, and HAPPY COMING HARI RAYA! Maaf Zahir & Batin.

Hari Kemerdekaan Ke-53

2010-09-02T16:17:00.005+08:00

Who said KTT is boring???

31 August; we did the Count Down for Merdeka, with lot of students at Bintang Walk! Firstly, I asked them to be in lines; Macam Perbarisan gitu. Then, we prayed for Malaysia; Christian Prayer by I-Vonne Lim. And, Muslim prayer recited by Faruqi. Its awesome! No matter what religion we are, but still, we managed to come and pray together; 1Malaysia!

Next, Tugu Negara (KTT Version) photography session! I asked all the representative for each races to take picture together, symbolising 1Malaysia. I love multiracial country!!

Arun (India), Ricky (Mix-Sabahan), Doris (Chinese), Maegyvear (Kadazan),
Mark (Penjajah?), Faruqi (Melayu), Amy (Mix-Sarawakian)

We sang Negaraku, Tanggal 31, Keranamu Malaysia, Jalur Gemilang, and not forgotten, the count down: 7 times laungan MERDEKA!

Not only celebrating Hari Kemerdekaan,
but we also celebrated Jude's Birthday!

Happy Birthday Jude!!!

Last event of that night, photography session! 1Malaysia.

I love Malaysia.

As a conclusion, who said KTT is boring? KTT is the most awesome college I ever had! Thanks God for the opportunity of being here. If you said KTT is boring, it is YOU actually who made it to be boring.

Last but not least,

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI KEMERDEKAAN NEGARA KE-53!

"1Malaysia; Menjana Transformasi"

IELTS

2010-09-02T14:55:00.004+08:00

I got my IELTS Result yesterday!

And, I really THANKS GOD!

I pass my IELTS, Band 7.0

Thank you very-very much to my IELTS lecturer: Madam Izzati,
all my English teachers, and not forgotten, my supportive friends!
THANKS A LOT!

Congratulation to few of my friends who managed to make it well!

All the Band 8.5 scorers:

Thanneer, Tan Kwan Tsien, Ricky and..

Opps. Sorry, I forget the other one.

Malay girl if not mistaken.

By the way,
congratulation to all candidates for IELTS August/September 2010!

Pray For You

2010-08-30T17:17:00.004+08:00

I haven’t been to church since I don’t remember when
Things were going great til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do
He said you can’t go hatin’ others who have done wrong to you
Sometimes we get angry but we must not condemn
Let the good Lord do his job, you just pray for them

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flower pot falls from a window sill
And knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, honey, I pray for you

I’m really glad I found my way to church
Cause I’m already feelin’ better and I thank God for the words
Yeah, I’m gonna take the high road and do what the preacher told me to do
You keep messin’ up, and I’ll keep prayin’ for you

I pray your tire goes out at 110
I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend
And wake up with his and her tattoos…

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flower pot falls from a window sill
And knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, near or far
In your house or in your car
Wherever you are, honey, I pray for you
I pray for you

This is a very nice song!
Feel free to watch the video in YouTube:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atBg9zLI2bA

(Sunday) Reflection

2010-08-29T18:21:00.008+08:00

This morning, during Mass, as usual, I played musics together with Jude. I'm training him to serve musics in Church so that after I finish A-level, the musics won't die there. (That is the reason why I took the courage to make the first step to serve in Church since last year; to bless others with the sounds of musics, praising and worshiping the God almighty).

I'm happy serving God. It brings me peace and joy, even though, it just a simple thing in front of others eyes. After Church, worries came! My study? Oh my goodness. Tomorrow I have Biology Paper 4 and Physics Paper 2. I haven't yet finish revising Biology. Physics? Haven't touch yet! I saw the messiness in me during that time. Stress or under pressure is all that what I can say. I'm emotionally unstable, and fragile. (But, still can cover and pretend that I am okay in front of everybody - my talent to do so by the way).

After taking my lunch, I directly went to sleep! Odoi, boroi la kau! And set my handphone alarm to wake me up at 11.50am (however, can only managed to wake up at 12.30pm!). I took my Biology textbook, and started to read Control, Coordination and Homeostasis chapter. But, huh, I'm boring with that chapter. Then, I opened Selection and Evolution. Okay, this one is much more interesting! But after reading few pages, I've realised that I'm not reading to understand. But, reading just to finish my tasks as I've planned!

I went inside my room. And, sleep! I can't hardly think rationally during that time. Somehow, I blame myself for all the tough roads and ways I have to take. Other people are seem so relax as their journey and life are different as mine. I wish that I can make a turnaround in 180 degrees. Can I? Please??? How childish I am!

I woke up again at 5.04pm. (I slept from 2.07pm). When my eyes opened, the thing that I can only see during that time is STUDY! No one can describe precisely correct how hard is this for me in such a short time given. People ignore me? I don't care. People saying bad a me? I don't care. And, even if people are arguing about maths outside, I don't care anymore! I have such a very narrow way of vision in that moment. I went to Mamak, bought my dinner, and ate.

However, there is one great thing that came to me during that time. I don't know why, but my right hand suddenly took a small book that I arranged vertically upright at my right corner. It is the Our Daily Bread. I simply opened without first thinking in which page I should read. And, I read;

"July 28; Expert Repair ~ If you've ever tried to fix something and failed, you'll appreciate the sign I saw outside the garage: We Will Fix What Your Husband Fixed. Whether the problem is the car, the plumbing or an appliance, it's usually better off in the hands of someone who is skilled and trustworthy.

So it is with the sin and the struggles within us that resist our efforts to mend them.

Jeremiah denounced the greedy prophets and priests of his day who 'healed the hurt of [God's] people slightly, saying PEACE, PEACE!' when there is no peace. (Jeremiah 6:14). They could neither change themselves nor lead the people to spiritual transformation. So, the Lord called the people to follow His way: Stand in the ways and see, and ask for the old paths, where the good way is, and walk in it. Then you will find rest for your souls. (v.16) "

The parts of our lives that we have tried and failed to repair can be restored by the hand of God. Through faith in Christ we can be made whole.

Life's fractures can be mended by faith in Christ the Lord.

At first the PAIN, then the GAIN

And usefulness restored!

During the time, where we find difficulties, somehow we have forgotten the basic thing in our life: GOD. We might called Him "Lord, Lord!" but we never do what He told us to do. Or even to open our eyes to see, and ears to listen Him. We keep on running so that we can finish the thing as soon as possible! But while running, we have actually ignored a few thing around us that is actually can help us to restore, recharge and even to build our self-esteem. At last, we fall down and stumble in the middle of our track before we manage to finish the race.

God Bless.

P/S: Actually, I'm not suppose to blog today, as tomorrow is my exam! And, I haven't yet finish my revision. But, I feel the needs to share this important value I've learnt today to all of you; readers!

Am I too much?

2010-08-26T21:48:00.004+08:00

One of my biggest, natural personality is; once I have something on my hands, I'll do my very best to it!

I don't know whether I should consider this as a good thing about me, or, something else. But yesterday night, someone made me realised that I am too much on Giving My Best already.

"Maegyvear, you should take a rest."

"Maegyvear, no need for you to come for the meeting. We can handle and help you to guide the juniors."

"Maegyvear, you look too tired. Better focus for your study and exam. A2 is just around the corner. Better for you to slow down first, and during KI, then you can continue serve and Give You Best back."

He made me realised! Thanks. People are busy studying now. Some people take 3 subjects. And, some of them choose to take 4 subjects. But, mine? 5 subjects! But yet, I've joined meetings here and there, doing other stuff which I'm not suppose to get busy with now, and still busy handling CF, even though I handed them over to the new committee.

Why I'm doing so? Because, I want to make sure that I handover CF perfectly and successfully so that I can finish my A-level with a great, satisfied smile! Even though I have to sacrifice a lot of things. Huhu. Melzie SMS me today, inviting me to have dinner at Pizza Hut with them. My housemate asked me to have outing with them. Watching movie? Erm. I refused to go, and actually, can't do so. I am different. TIME is the most precious for me now. But CF? Its my responsibility.

"Maegyvear, its your time to rest. Now is our turn to help you to handle CF. You have to remember that you are taking 5 subjects. You need to study more than us. You worked too hard already. Don't put yourself into a risk."

I don't know! Should I leave them just like that, and I am studying at my apartment? What will they think about me? Irresponsible??? I'm worry about people's misjudgement on me. What if they don't understand? Or, maybe they have the same opinion like him? I need to slow down my activities?

Even my lecturers advice me to slow down a bit! My seniors too. Am I doing too much thing, which I'm not suppose to be now?

Am I too much?

P/S: By the way, thanks Mark Noel for waking me up, and opened my eyes to see this thing.