Can I handle this?

28 March is Festival Sukan Kolej Teknologi Timur (FESKOTT). I will join 5 events that day. Start with Larian Mesra (Cross Country), 1500m, 4X400m, 400m and 4X100m. What an exhausted day will be!

Not enough with that, suddenly the board of director for Feskott as me (with Shin Chian) to perform (singing) during closing ceremony. Oh my goodness!! Can I catch my breath?

The next day (29 March 2010), gonna be our Pre-AS Examination! Argghh...why things suddenly appear like this?

I hope I can handle this things with care. I want to run away now also cannot already. It's too late for me to turn back.

No matter what happen, I'll try my best and GIVE MY BEST. Just ENJOY, and God will surely BLESS.

I win, I'll praise God. I lose, I'll still praise God.
Because, He have his better plan for me.

Okay! I'll update this page soon. Let's see how things work later. God Bless you.

What's Next?

Festival Seni (FESNI) is over. Well, I’ve joined singing competition (duo). And ya, I won! Thanks to my supportive and talented partner: Shin Chian. And not forgotten my lecturers and friends. During the competition, we need to sing two songs: (Lagu 60-an & Pilihan Sendiri). Therefore, we chose to sing Yang Mana Satu Idaman Kalbu and Sandarkan Pada Kenangan. This is such an awesome experience to have. Actually, I didn’t plan to join this singing competition. But, because of running away from any drama, theatre and choir competition, so I just simply wrote down my name for singing. I went for the audition, and manage to pass, and also being selected. Thursday night is the semifinal, and we managed to be in the final two. Thanks God, everything is well-paid.  During final, we won!

First Song:Yang Mana Satu Idaman Kalbu

Second Song: Sandarkan Pada Kenangan

 Winner

(Shin Chian & Maegyvear)

What next? Festival Sukan (FESKOTT) is just around the corner. 28 March! Huh..I join Larian Mesra (merentas desa), 1500m, 800m, 4X400m and 4X100m. This surely be such a tiring day! Why? At 8.00am, I have to get ready for Larian Mesra. Then, around 9.00am is 800m, 9.30am is 1500m and 10.00am is 4X400m. Wow!!! I think that I need to drop one of the events. Maybe, 800m. Huhu...Ermm, what is my target? Erm...all the students aim to get the Olahragawan Awards. But for me, I will just do my best, and let God do the rest.

30^th March 2010 is the first day of Pre-AS Examination. Huhu..how is my preparation? Well, everything seems too pack for me. But, I like being in this kind of situation as compared to too loose condition. But, this is not easy if you don’t have the endurance and good self-discipline management. Readers, if you are in the same kind of situation like me, what you should do is, give your best in everything you do. Enjoy everything, and God surely keep you blessed. Chayo chayo!!!

JPA Scholarship

To all SPM 2009 Candidates, 

please do check on this JPA official website for scholarship information and application. 

I'll try my best to help and give information (to all of you) for your JPA scholarship application. 

http://esilav2.jpa.gov.my/

By the way, to all my friends (JPA Scholars),

help me to add any scholarship information regarding this topic

so that we can bless and help others to further their study without any financial problems.

Any further/personal information, do email me at: 

maegyvear@yahoo.com

God bless you ^_^

Giving My Best

I have changed my Blog's name to 

Maegyvear: Giving My Best

Well, I have realized that I misused the term of humility in Giving my Best. I've become currently passive, keep on avoiding the opportunity to be what I used to be before, and doing things half of my best! Wake up Maegyvear!!!

We can achieve what we have aimed for. Before this, I thought that achieving the greatest thing will destroy my humility. I keep saying myself to be humble. And misuse it!! Humility (in my wrong way) make me such a weak person. But then I've realized that thing is not like that. We can achieve the greatest things in our life with humility.

Therefore, be strong and powerful!!! At the same time: be humble.

God Bless.

Holiday View

Friday

I've joined the prayer meeting in my church. Arrgghh..awesome! I've served in the praise and worship team. Together with Gumie, Nestor, Kilur (Keyboardist), Baxter!!! Ermm..during sharing, Flevia shared about forgiveness, and how she managed to forgive someone that hurt her for almost 6 months. She taught us a simple prayer that she prayed until she got the miracles to forgive that person: "Tuhan, berilah saya rahmat pengampunan". Huh..I wish, within this short period of time, I can get the strength to forgive (for the second time) to those who hurt me, betraying me, and back-stabber.

Saturday

Planning to take my bible and read it at 7.30am (as what I usually did during Campus Revo), but I woke up late!!! Huh..what happen today? Nothing much. I spend my time with my siblings, asked them to clean the house, wash clothes, cooks, sweep the floor..etc etc..and I, watching TV. Hahaha..Actuallu, that evening, my mom asked me to accompany her to supermarket for shopping and buy a lot of thing. But then, Christina sms me to join them in KBP's first recollection and meeting that night. So, I've joined them. They have selected the new KBP's committee. Well, I wish all the best to all of you!!! This coming saturday (20 February), they asked me to join them in the Recollection and Committee training until Sunday. But, I'm sorry guys, my parents didn't allow me to go. They said, its better for me to stay at house and spend time with them. Huhu..Family's Love!!!

Sunday

Argghh..I ate much!!! Happy Chinese New Year and Valentine too! My mom cooked mee sup. And, its super awesome!!! I ate 3 rounds. Rest for a while, then ate again...haha...I wish I won't gain weight. Because Feskott (Festival Sukan Kolej Teknologi Timur)  is just around the Corner. I have to get ready for Feskott. Wishing to get at least one gold medal. hehe...

Monday

Open house again!!! Ermm...today also I ate extremely much! Starting at 11.00am, Christina and Flevia brought me to KFC! They spent me. Oh gosh...that is my first time which I can't finish my Chicken. Why??? Its too much!!! Haha..btw, thank you very-very much to Christina, Flevia, Nestor and Fodi...After that, we ate ice-cream. Huhu!! I went back home at 5.00pm. Then, took my bath, and changed my clothes. Because, Flevia fetched me again to Rian's open house and birthday party!!! Haha..imagine! Continuously eating...

Erm..I went back home at 9.30pm (from Rian's house). My younger sisters, (Mimie & Margaret) still there. I have told them to come back not too late. But then, I waited until 12.00am. They are still not here (house). I sms them 3 times (10.00pm, 11.00pm and 12.00am). Margaret did reply. She said, she wanted to go back already. But no transport. She asked the others to go back, but they don't want. And, said: Malam masih muda. Uhh..ok, malam masih muda ya?? haha...well, I'm a very strict brother towards my siblings, especially my younger sisters. Why? I take care about them very-very much. Because, the world is not safe anymore. Guess what I did? I locked the house!!! Haha..and send my last message that night: "Both of you sleep outside!" Ermm..pity la to those who get me as their brother. Hehehe..but, I love them very-very much.

 

Younger Sister: Margaret

 Youngest Sister: Mimie

Tuesday

Today, my sister (Margaret) went back to her hostel at SMK Teknik Keningau. Gonna miss her a lot. Why their holiday is too short?? I haven't get enough time to talk with her. Btw, she is awesome. Grown up already...hehe... all the best ya!

Erm..today also, we have Ash Day at Church. Means, fasting gonna start tomorrow. Well, during the homily, Father Jalius advised us to pray while fasting. During this 40 days fasting time, I wish I can be cured from my trauma about something that happened to me. And, got the strength to forgive and face my friend aka 'enemy'.

 

Home Sweet Home

Yeah!!! I'm home now. I miss Sabah so much!! Guess what, when the aeroplane landed, the first thing that I saw was the Pilak’s people working beside the airport.

When I reached my house, all my younger brothers and cousins came to me. Semuanya minta didukung!! Berebut-rebut untuk didukung..haha..until some of them fight to each other, cry and jealous if I ‘dukung’ one of them.

What else? Erm..oh ya, my room is so dirty!! Dust is everywhere. So, I cleaned it up today, and it looked fabulous after that. Well, I am hygienist. I don’t like to see things messy and dirty!!

Oh ya..something happen during my flight. I sat at 24B (means, in the middle). At my right side is a girl from Philippine. During lunch time, one of the steward asked me,

“Would you like to have Nasi Lemak or Roti Canai, sir?”

Then, with British slang, I answered him. “Nasi Lemak, please. Thank you!”

Haha..that is not the interesting part I gonna tell you here. The Philippine’s girl also asked for the same order as mine. But suddenly, she dropped her nuts+ikan bilis!! I saw her wanted to ask the steward to pick it up for her, but she didn’t. Then, being gentleman, I gave mine to her. She smile, saying thank you! Haha..for the first time I sacrifice my foods to other in MAS. Although I like nuts very much, but it felt much more delicious and great when you sacrifice something you like to those who need it.

So, what Maegyvear said today:

“It will be much more ‘delicious’ and great when you sacrifice something you LIKE to those who NEED it.”

Do you still love God?

My Middle Semester II Examination was from 25th January 2010 until 30th January 2010. I tell you, that week is the hardest week for me (so far).

Two days before exam starts, I was hardly facing problems! Before this, I can handle a lot of problems that arise. Outside me, I’m look as usual, happy and normal (although I have problem). But this time, the problems are different. I’m fighting with myself! Although I am totally hurted by someone, but still I am fighting with people’s opinion to forgive that person for the second time (btw, should I?). Because God said that “Forgive your enemy!!!”

This time is really hard and tough. I can’t hide it anymore. Even to pretend myself that I don’t have problem, but still my friends know that I am not in a good condition. Ricky said that, obviously, it shown.

During the exam, people are rushing to finish answering their papers in one hour, but still cannot finish it within that period of time. Imagine me, sitting in the examination halls, rushing to answer the questions, and at the same time, that problems arise and keep disturbing me. I lose my focus!

Why I can focus and let it go???

- It was tough!!!

- Because, firstly I forgive that person 5 months ago.

- Although it’s not my fault, but I am the one who worked hard to strengthen back our relationship. Trying many ways to help that person so that that person will not feel guilty and be happy.

- I think that my forgiveness before this is useless and did not been appreciated.

- That person broke the promises he/she make before (I WILL NOT DO IT AGAIN)!!!

How tough is the problem??? Well, I’m not going to post what kind of problem was it here. Because, still I care about that’s person privacy. But, it was hard until it affects my internal Mid Semester 2 Examination (Yups! My results are not too good compared to before) and it did me cry!!! (what??? A guy cried??? Huh...yess!! Sometimes, a guy do cry when they are really hurt: I mean, really, really, and extremely hurt)

I asked myself, God why this entire thing happened to me? Why I’m facing it now (I mean, during exam week)??? Why not later? Arghhh...

Well human, the greatest part of it is how God work during that period of time? And, how you glorify God’s name during this tough-period of time? If God give you this, do you still love God?

“Thanks God for giving me such a great testimony and experience to glorify your name and to bless others. May this simple story can become a great inspiration for those that in the same condition faced by me. Praise you!”

February

February come again. 
Today is the very first of february. 
Month of love? 
Month for valentine?
Ermm...well, I've discussed with my housemate regarding this thing. 
And, we agree! For now, my STATEMENT:

"Couple-ling is troublesome"

What would you say??? 

Tongue

Question:

What is the thing that is restless and evil, full of deadly poison???

Controlling the tongue

(JAMES 3: 1-12)

REFLECTION:

- We all make mistakes. For if we could control our tongues, we would be perfect and could also control ourselves in every other way.

- The tongue is a small thing that can makes grand speeches.

- But, a tiny spark can set a great forest on fire.

- And the tongue is a flame of fire. It is a whole world of wickedness, corrupting your entire body. It can set your whole life on fire, for it is set on fire by hell itself.

- People can tame all kinds of animals, birds, reptiles, and fish, but no one can tame the tongue.

- Sometimes, it PRAISES our Lord and Father, and sometimes it CURSES those who have been made in the image of God.

- And, so blessing and cursing come pouring out from the same mouth. Surely my brothers and sisters, this is not right!!!

- We all human! Who are weak and have weaknesses. But, by having God in our life, the weak become strong, the poor become rich. Nothing is impossible with God. But, its all depend on us. Are you willing to change? Don't keep on praying without action.

- Remember, prepare your field to receive the rain.

- GBU..(^_^)

Friend

Can I make a new friend when I can't speak their language?

Can I make a new friend when I do not know how to communicate?

Can I make a new friend when I am too shy to start over the conversation?

Can I make a new friend when I am...

Who is my friend?

Why do I need friends?

When do I need friends?

Where do I must have friends?