Do you still love God?

My Middle Semester II Examination was from 25th January 2010 until 30th January 2010. I tell you, that week is the hardest week for me (so far).

Two days before exam starts, I was hardly facing problems! Before this, I can handle a lot of problems that arise. Outside me, I’m look as usual, happy and normal (although I have problem). But this time, the problems are different. I’m fighting with myself! Although I am totally hurted by someone, but still I am fighting with people’s opinion to forgive that person for the second time (btw, should I?). Because God said that “Forgive your enemy!!!”

This time is really hard and tough. I can’t hide it anymore. Even to pretend myself that I don’t have problem, but still my friends know that I am not in a good condition. Ricky said that, obviously, it shown.

During the exam, people are rushing to finish answering their papers in one hour, but still cannot finish it within that period of time. Imagine me, sitting in the examination halls, rushing to answer the questions, and at the same time, that problems arise and keep disturbing me. I lose my focus!

Why I can focus and let it go???

- It was tough!!!

- Because, firstly I forgive that person 5 months ago.

- Although it’s not my fault, but I am the one who worked hard to strengthen back our relationship. Trying many ways to help that person so that that person will not feel guilty and be happy.

- I think that my forgiveness before this is useless and did not been appreciated.

- That person broke the promises he/she make before (I WILL NOT DO IT AGAIN)!!!

How tough is the problem??? Well, I’m not going to post what kind of problem was it here. Because, still I care about that’s person privacy. But, it was hard until it affects my internal Mid Semester 2 Examination (Yups! My results are not too good compared to before) and it did me cry!!! (what??? A guy cried??? Huh...yess!! Sometimes, a guy do cry when they are really hurt: I mean, really, really, and extremely hurt)

I asked myself, God why this entire thing happened to me? Why I’m facing it now (I mean, during exam week)??? Why not later? Arghhh...

Well human, the greatest part of it is how God work during that period of time? And, how you glorify God’s name during this tough-period of time? If God give you this, do you still love God?

“Thanks God for giving me such a great testimony and experience to glorify your name and to bless others. May this simple story can become a great inspiration for those that in the same condition faced by me. Praise you!”