Pray For You

I haven’t been to church since I don’t remember when
Things were going great til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do
He said you can’t go hatin’ others who have done wrong to you
Sometimes we get angry but we must not condemn
Let the good Lord do his job, you just pray for them

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flower pot falls from a window sill
And knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, honey, I pray for you

I’m really glad I found my way to church
Cause I’m already feelin’ better and I thank God for the words
Yeah, I’m gonna take the high road and do what the preacher told me to do
You keep messin’ up, and I’ll keep prayin’ for you

I pray your tire goes out at 110
I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend
And wake up with his and her tattoos…

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill
I pray a flower pot falls from a window sill
And knocks you in the head like I’d like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, near or far
In your house or in your car
Wherever you are, honey, I pray for you
I pray for you

This is a very nice song!
Feel free to watch the video in YouTube: 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atBg9zLI2bA

(Sunday) Reflection

This morning, during Mass, as usual, I played musics together with Jude. I'm training him to serve musics in Church so that after I finish A-level, the musics won't die there. (That is the reason why I took the courage to make the first step to serve in Church since last year; to bless others with the sounds of musics, praising and worshiping the God almighty).

I'm happy serving God. It brings me peace and joy, even though, it just a simple thing in front of others eyes. After Church, worries came! My study? Oh my goodness. Tomorrow I have Biology Paper 4 and Physics Paper 2. I haven't yet finish revising Biology. Physics? Haven't touch yet! I saw the messiness in me during that time. Stress or under pressure is all that what I can say. I'm emotionally unstable, and fragile. (But, still can cover and pretend that I am okay in front of everybody - my talent to do so by the way).

After taking my lunch, I directly went to sleep! Odoi, boroi la kau! And set my handphone alarm to wake me up at 11.50am (however, can only managed to wake up at 12.30pm!). I took my Biology textbook, and started to read Control, Coordination and Homeostasis chapter. But, huh, I'm boring with that chapter. Then, I opened Selection and Evolution. Okay, this one is much more interesting! But after reading few pages, I've realised that I'm not reading to understand. But, reading just to finish my tasks as I've planned!

I went inside my room. And, sleep! I can't hardly think rationally during that time. Somehow, I blame myself for all the tough roads and ways I have to take. Other people are seem so relax as their journey and life are different as mine. I wish that I can make a turnaround in 180 degrees. Can I? Please??? How childish I am!

I woke up again at 5.04pm. (I slept from 2.07pm). When my eyes opened, the thing that I can only see  during that time is STUDY! No one can describe precisely correct how hard is this for me in such a short time given. People ignore me? I don't care. People saying bad a me? I don't care. And, even if people are arguing about maths outside, I don't care anymore! I have such a very narrow way of vision in that moment. I went to Mamak, bought my dinner, and ate.

However, there is one great thing that came to me during that time. I don't know why, but my right hand suddenly took a small book that I arranged vertically upright at my right corner. It is the Our Daily Bread. I simply opened without first thinking in which page I should read. And, I read;

"July 28; Expert Repair ~ If you've ever tried to fix something and failed, you'll appreciate the sign I saw outside the garage: We Will Fix What Your Husband Fixed. Whether the problem is the car, the plumbing or an appliance, it's usually better off in the hands of someone who is skilled and trustworthy. 

So it is with the sin and the struggles within us that resist our efforts to mend them.

Jeremiah denounced the greedy prophets and priests of his day who 'healed the hurt of [God's] people slightly, saying PEACE, PEACE!' when there is no peace. (Jeremiah 6:14). They could neither change themselves nor lead the people to spiritual transformation. So, the Lord called the people to follow His way: Stand in the ways and see, and ask for the old paths, where the good way is, and walk in it. Then you will find rest for your souls. (v.16) "

The parts of our lives that we have tried and failed to repair can be restored by the hand of God. Through faith in Christ we can be made whole.

Life's fractures can be mended by faith in Christ the Lord.

At first the PAIN, then the GAIN

And usefulness restored! 

During the time, where we find difficulties, somehow we have forgotten the basic thing in our life: GOD. We might called Him "Lord, Lord!" but we never do what He told us to do. Or even to open our eyes to see, and ears to listen Him. We keep on running so that we can finish the thing as soon as possible! But while running, we have actually ignored a few thing around us that is actually can help us to restore, recharge and even to build our self-esteem. At last, we fall down and stumble in the middle of our track before we manage to finish the race.

God Bless.
 

P/S: Actually, I'm not suppose to blog today, as tomorrow is my exam! And, I haven't yet finish my revision. But, I feel the needs to share this important value I've learnt today to all of you; readers!

Am I too much?

One of my biggest, natural personality is; once I have something on my hands, I'll do my very best to it! 

I don't know whether I should consider this as a good thing about me, or, something else. But yesterday night, someone made me realised that I am too much on Giving My Best already.

"Maegyvear, you should take a rest."

"Maegyvear, no need for you to come for the meeting. We can handle and help you to guide the juniors."

"Maegyvear, you look too tired. Better focus for your study and exam. A2 is just around the corner. Better for you to slow down first, and during KI, then you can continue serve and Give You Best back."

He made me realised! Thanks. People are busy studying now. Some people take 3 subjects. And, some of them choose to take 4 subjects. But, mine? 5 subjects! But yet, I've joined meetings here and there, doing other stuff which I'm not suppose to get busy with now, and still busy handling CF, even though I handed them over to the new committee.

Why I'm doing so? Because, I want to make sure that I handover CF perfectly and successfully so that I can finish my A-level with a great, satisfied smile! Even though I have to sacrifice a lot of things. Huhu. Melzie SMS me today, inviting me to have dinner at Pizza Hut with them. My housemate asked me to have outing with them. Watching movie? Erm. I refused to go, and actually, can't do so. I am different. TIME is the most precious for me now. But CF? Its my responsibility.

"Maegyvear, its your time to rest. Now is our turn to help you to handle CF. You have to remember that you are taking 5 subjects. You need to study more than us. You worked too hard already. Don't put yourself into a risk."

I don't know! Should I leave them just like that, and I am studying at my apartment? What will they think about me? Irresponsible??? I'm worry about people's misjudgement on me. What if they don't understand? Or, maybe they have the same opinion like him? I need to slow down my activities?

Even my lecturers advice me to slow down a bit! My seniors too. Am I doing too much thing, which I'm not suppose to be now?

Am I too much?

P/S: By the way, thanks Mark Noel for waking me up, and opened my eyes to see this thing.

26 August 2010

Still remember my 5 Top Craving List I have posted before? Ya, thanks to someone who bought me a set of Snack Plate! I managed to get one!!! Yeah. She made me smile, even during my hard time of struggling in my revision. Should I mention your name here? Erm. Nevermind lah, later people 'attack' you. Hehe. By the way, thanks a lot! And, God bless!

Snack Plate? Alaaah, it is simple maa..hehe.

But, when you give it to someone, it taste different! Thanks.

Wednesday Update

Next week is still exam. My trial, by the way.

And, can't wait for the 3rd September to come!

Because, I'm going back to Sabah!!!

CF (4th Generation) New Committee, 2010/2011

President : 

I-Vonne Lim

Vice President 1: 

Benjamin Oh Zheming

Vice President 2: 

Loo Xiu Jing

Secretary: 

Geraldine Una Jetony

Treasurer: 

Joseph Lim Yong Kee

Praise & Worship Coordinator: 

Lynton Edviano

Prayer Group 1 Coordinator: 

Esther Tan

Prayer Group 2 Coordinator: 

Jude Florian

Event Coordinator: 

Corine Tangau

Music Coordinator: 

Rachel Ling

Sport Coordinator: 

Jacinta Toimin

Media & Publisity Coordinator: 

Chia Yong Kuang

Some nourishment from me to you guys:

1 Samuel 16:7

"Don't just by his appearance or height, for I have rejected him. 

The Lord doesn't see things the way you see them. 

People judge by outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."

Romans 8:18

"Yet, what you suffered now is nothing as compared to the glory that He will reveal to you later"

1 Peter 4:12-13

"Dear friends, don't be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you. Instead, be very glad - for the trials make you partners with Christ in his suffering, so that you will have the wonderful joy of seeing his glory when it is revealed to all the world."

Jeremiah 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."

P/S: Remember the 'paper' I gave to each and everyone of you. Write something on it. And, 1 year after this, look back the journey of yours. One thing I can assure you guys is, God will never leave or forsake you. He is always there for you, walking, running, and sometime, carrying you up. Welcome to CF!

You Give Me Hope

You give me hope

I look at your smiling face,

Your so weak, and yet you have such strength,

You take a glance around this place,

You make the best of everything

 Chorus:

You give me hope, in spite of everything,

You show me love, even with so much pain

So I'll take this life and live like I

Was given another try

We laugh, we cry

Sometimes we're broken and we don't know why,

I'm tired and I lose my way,

You help me find faith

Oh…

P/s: This is one of the songs from the awesome and inspiring Christian movie, 

Letters to God! I like it (clicking LIKE).

Top 5 List in a week. Please!!!

Can someone (anyone) help me to fulfill my top 5 cravings list in a week? Please!!! In return, I will give you my best-est smile ever!

Kit Kat
(From MiniMart)

KFC 5 Pieces of chicken 
(Drumstick, Wing, Breast, Thigh, and Ribs!)

Burger 

(In front of Malay Cafe)

A friend to jog with around KTT Field

An extremely cute face or pose 
(in photo view)!

Letter To God

Maegyvear, 6 August 2010.

"God, I'm too tired. Not spiritually, but physically. Maybe because of the things that are going on in my life here. I wish I can have a time like hanging out with friends, singing crazily in K-Box, play bowling then beat Victor, or screaming while watching Ghost/Horror Movies in Cinema. 

But it seems that TIME is the most precious thing that I don't want others to grab it from me. I'm too selfish here. But, what can I do then? Next week will be my IELTS examination. Before that, I'm struggling with my nerves first for my AS Level Results! However, I don't really care. As I worry much on my IELTS. You know God that my English is not that good. I'm hoping for a miracle to come. Please?

There will be 6 more days before I'm going to get my AS Result. 7 more days before my IELTS Examination. 24 more days before my Pre-A2 Examination. And, 66 more days before my real A2 Level Examination.

I'm going to hand-over CF to the new committee in just a few more days, 18 August by the way. 19 August will be my 1 year anniversary as a CF President here. If I reflect back how beautiful is the journey of life that you gave me, I can't believe that! You are faithful God. Your words are awesome. You've said that, You know the plans that You gave me. A plan for good, and not for disaster. To give me a hope and a future! Now I understand. Thanks God.

God, one more thing, I hope that you can take care of my juniors, my friends and especially my family Lord. I'm too busy with my own stuff. I wish I can have much time with them, but...I'm looking forward to it. However, during this moment, help me to take care after them. I love them so much. And, I love you God."

P/S: While typing this letter, John my housemate, who just came back from his class, suddenly asked me; Would you like to go out tonight? Satay Kajang?

God is so, so good!

God Bless.

Letter To My Beloved Juniors

 

Life is full of such challenges! And, as a Christian we are not excluded from dissapointments that make us want to give up. However, never give up in the middle of your fights. Because, what you suffer now is nothing as compared to the glory that He will revealed later. Have faith. Have hope. And, have love!

We, the seniors, suffer a lot of things, which make us stronger and stronger. Don't keep on blaming  and complaining when things around you are not as comfortable as what you have expected before. You are the chosen one! Be grateful to God as He chose you to become God's warrior! Be grateful to God as He gives you this opportunity to experience the suffering in your life. As, you will appreciate his grace more than what you have actually had. His grace is sufficient!

God will never forget you, nor forsaken you. He won't leave you in the middle of the darkness in your life. He will always be there for you. It is just YOU to decide whether you want Him to be there with you, and to enter your hearts. It is YOU to decide whether you want to open your eyes to see, open your ears to listen and open your heart to obey in what He is trying to tell to you.

If God challenge you something, be thankful as He choose you to have that challenge. Nobody would have the same opportunity as what you have given by God almighty. So, BE THANKFUL. And, ask God, "Give me more challenge!"

Even though you fall down few times, take up the cross and follow Him. Even though your life is getting much more challenging, never say "God, why me?". Because you know that He gives you that honor and privilege to be in His kingdom.

Walk with me (us) to the Kingdom of God!

May God bless you.

August Highlight

1 August:

Birthday Andrina Tay and Floriece Ellniss.

4 August:

CF Meeting. Going to watch movie; Letters to God. Some of our seniors are going to fly to India too.

11 August:

My Mom's Birthday!

12 August:

AS Results will be revealed!

13 August:

IELTS Examination (Speaking)

14 August:

IELTS Examination (Reading, Writing, Listening). After finish Exam, we'll be having Berbuka Puasa with Miss Aifaa and ALU10.

16 August:

CF Committee (2009/2010) Reflection

18 August:

CF New Committee (2010/2011) Election

19 August:

My 1 year anniversary as CF President. Birthday Fergus!

25 August:

Birthday Nasrullah and Conan. Plus, Daniel Chong's flight to India. (Koala Bear)

27 August:

Birthday Ellye Ornella. Result IELTS?

30 August:

Pre-A2 Examination

31 August:

Merdeka!

Oh My Goodness!!!

McGyver: hey..
McGyver: sorry disturb..i just curious. who is this? why do you added me?
Gina California: Hello there.. My name is Gina.. Got ur ID through Messenger Directory
McGyver: oh..
McGyver: Gina? Kelvin's friend?
Gina California: I love chatting with new people.. Would you like to chat today? Where are you from?
McGyver: Gina?
McGyver: erm..do i know u?
Gina California: Nice Im 24 years old i'm going to school in California.. Can i ask you a question?
McGyver: ya?
Gina California: Do you like big booty girls with big tits? lol seriously cuz thats what i am/have..Is that too much for you to handle?
McGyver: erm...
McGyver: I dont know
McGyver: Im just 19
Gina California: so yea i'm lonely would you like to have some kinky fun? Would you like to see me?
McGyver: lack of experience by the way
Gina California: ok but i have no pictures on my computer.. but i have a video camera connected
McGyver: not this time, Im busy
Gina California: ok let me set up my camera for you baby i hope your ready for some booty shots..
McGyver: no need
McGyver: ok I have to go
McGyver: bye2
Gina California: lol ok goto http://tinyurl.com/AdultMyspace183473 and we can go 1 on 1 chat. Just click join at the top of the webpage.


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I copied this conversation from my YM! I don't know what is going on.  Thanks God, I signed off earlier before things bad happen. So, next time, be careful when you want to approve someone's request through any internet sources.


Then, I shared with my senior: Daniel Chong. And this is what he said:

McGyver: Have u cek on my blog
McGyver: ???
McGyver: got one new interesting post!
Daniel KTT: havent
Daniel KTT: wa.. let me check
McGyver: which make me trauma and fobia...
Daniel KTT: hahaha
Daniel KTT: thats a bot
Daniel KTT: sex robot
McGyver: ya ka?
McGyver: huh!
McGyver: stupid la
Daniel KTT: haha ya..
Daniel KTT: its like automatic msg one..
Daniel KTT: they want u to open your webcam
Daniel KTT: then they record you...
McGyver: then?
Daniel KTT: and upload to porn website
Daniel KTT: haha...
McGyver: thanks god i didnt
Daniel KTT: LOL
Daniel KTT: why would u....
Daniel KTT: HAHAHAHA
McGyver: btw, how do u know this?
Daniel KTT: if u google it...
Daniel KTT: anyway, it quite obvious ba..
Daniel KTT: its a sexbot
McGyver: thanks...
Daniel KTT: they will always repeat the same things
McGyver: now I know
McGyver: Ok, thanks Daniel!
Daniel KTT: haha its ok
Daniel KTT: u better study hard~
Daniel KTT: 25 august is pre-A2 ka
McGyver: ok, going now...
Daniel KTT: so sad if u cant come see me
McGyver: not sure yet...
Daniel KTT: bye bye
McGyver: i want koala bear!
McGyver: ok
Daniel KTT: u better tell me..
McGyver: bye2
Daniel KTT: haha..

Thanks a lot Daniel! New experience! Nice. And, I've deleted 'Gina' from my YM list!! If let say I open the webcam? Oh my goodness, I might become one of the webcam hottest PornStar maybe.  Haha. Thanks God for leading me into a right way! God Bless!

Free Dinner Ticket!!!

I went to church this morning. As usual, I played keyboard. Today I'm so happy! Extremely happy! Why? Because, after finish church, and after I packed back all the keyboard instrument and stuff into its beg, the priest, Father Raymond, came and talked to me. He asked whether I'm going to the Church Dinner on the 30th of October. Oh my goodness, that week will be my A2 week. So, I told him that I might not be able to come as exam is around.

But then, he asked me to wait him for a while. He took his file, and guess what...he gave me a ticket! Free dinner ticket, which should cost me Rm50! But, Father Raymond gave me for free. I asked him, why? Then he said, as an appreciation (Thank you very much)! And, he wants me to come and join the dinner with them. Yeah! Now, I'm thinking, should I go?

The ticket. I don't know why Father Raymond keep on reminding me to look at the number. Which number by the way?

 Yeah! I felt so appreciated! Thanks Father Raymond!

P/S: I wish, got KTT students joining that Dinner too. Juniors. Seniors. Rm50 per ticket. Rm500 per table. If not, huhu. What should I do?